CRUSHA Poem by RuseInexwistful love
She brought him chocolates
And was made up like a beauty dressed to kill On a work day, (for him, no doubt) Mascara, lipstick and a preppy, glowing, cheerful demeanor Of playful personality. On the last day of school A last prep day for him The final one She was coy Distant but close Flitting with little objects at her teacher’s desk. He pondered a hug Thinking it would never occur Her flirtation had sustained over 3 years’ time Culminating at this final day Chocolates she again gave him 3 expensive packages and kinds Truffles Dark with sea salt And another very rich one. The day went fast But not before She enjoyed his taquitos de ojo Reflected from his pupil back to her Of her youthful coy beauty He would stare and smirk Her cuteness beyond description As she explained Inevitably throwing a pen at him With mixture of frustration and feigned neutralized anger. He strategized, how would he trigger a hug At the parking curb Where his pickup awaited And her own SUV She packed and picked up her own baggage Nervously commenting on the cluttered floor board Refusing his advances To help. Then she straightened And closed the passenger door Can you give me a hug, he asked “No, I won’t,” she responded With muffled, firm voice Extending her hand for a handshake as he had expected Suppressing resentment, He took her right hand Firm it was and tanned forearm Strong grip and with smooth motion Attempted to lead, guide her up the 8 inch curb Her body stiffened but followed his lead up the concrete He felt her discomfort, resentful awkward He felt rejection yet again. Like in times past when touch Some welcomed and subtle Others blocked Like at the cafeteria two days prior at the 6th graders dance When he and she had formed an arch with their arms And he at the peak touched her index finger And grasped it between his thumb and own index finger And she pulled away And he embarrassed Rejected yet another time And then at the parking spot He walked away to her driver side door At front of SUV Waiting yet wanting to leave But she extended her arm again He felt her sense of apology Her sense of knowing his hurt He took her hand hesitantly, thinking Considering rather to hold an offense Shook it while mustering strength to say Cheerfully, Okay Sister, it’s been good knowing you In a Texas accent kind of way She grinning sheepishly. “I probably won’t be able to go” Meaning his Five Italian Retirement Dinner invitation It’s ok, he said “But I might go to the reception” He said, good, I hope you can Yet knowing she probably wouldn’t, He would never see her again His greatest remorse. Then he walked toward his own She stopped him with her eyes Having stepped into the vehicle fumbling with the door Playing with the dash, the ignition, stalling Sitting back like a swagger, arms extended at the wheel Now like a different person Confident, sexually appealing “Garcia,” she said And he could not remember what she had said But it was also laden with remorse Yet spoken with wistfulness and flirtatious, confident independence Of a woman who could have yielded to temptation But admirable that she or had not He turned to go to his pickup She closed the door and caught him again with her eyes And voice “Garcia," hay tomate una por mi,” cockily, sexily spoken Yet another on rare occasions he had before heard such tone Another side of her past perhaps What? He asked her, knowing what she had first said, yet taken by surprise “Hay tomate una por me,” she repeated, (Have one on me) I will, he responded as cheerfully as he could Feeling hypocrisy of the greatest kind Feeling a strong reflex to hand sweep a breath kiss at her As she looked at him with a beaming smile But he suspected repercussions and resisted that urge Climbing into his own vehicle Feeling empty and stupidly foolish Thinking he would never, ever see her again. © 2015 RuseInex |
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Added on December 10, 2015 Last Updated on December 10, 2015 AuthorRuseInexFresno, CAAboutI was born in obscurity Outside a small country town’s limits In a plank shack I kept a few memories That come into my head That i still carry around That i visit now and then The dust .. more..Writing
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