And if they play my life on the big screen?

self reflection

And if they play my life on the big screen?

Legs will shiver
standing in front
taller
a glimpse into the crowds I force
popped out eyes my pupil sinking deeper
My lips trembling
A manifestation of the biblical ‘gnashing of the teeth’
friction against my throat
Straight stifle neck.
Its them and me against me
Nails harden
deep inside my belly a pit forming
Tickling noises inside my head
Drenched in sweat squeezed out of my blood
Splushing out of every capillary vein
the hanging tiny cloth covering my body will blow away
that which was hidden uncovered
naked and exposed
Shame over my skin

Fear,
Anger and fury,
Self-hate,
Witnessing the insatiable appetite i had for sin
Having every bit of it to the last crumb.
Playing Stare game with Regret
Next with Shame
aware fully an undoubtable defeat awaits me
A crowning moment for them both

I bet I will be
Numbed but still will feel
tears drenching down
If anything, don’t play the story of my life on the big screen
For it will suck out and blow away the little dignity left within me.

Author's Note

review please!!!

Reviews

[barleygirl]

I was watching an old awards program with Carole King (singer/songwriter from 1970's) & she said there was a broadway play about her life which she was never going to go see! Even a superb life like hers is not something a person wants to watch (himself/herself) onstage! You've captured exactly how I feel when I try to write about my self-indulgent careless apathetic sex-crazed youth. I'm afraid I might get arrested under the "Me,Too" movement (sexualized creeps like I used to be -- some might say I still am!) This is an imaginative idea & you throw a million vivid details so the reader feels it with all the senses! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Poetrylover]

thank you Barley girl with the review.

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