Sincere Apology

an apology poem dedicated to my theb boyfriend

Here I am, once AGAIN, begging on my knees
With all my heart
Uttering the same old words
Fuess,by now, they have come to stick to your mind
Here I am once AGAIN on my knees appealing for mercy
Here I am once AGAIN I am begging for forgiveness.

I am in shame and pain
Shame of betrayal
And pain of hurting you.
Distrust, anger and bitterness have come to mould your feelings about me.
The eyes that used to shine so bright have become so dull and distant.

The sad reality Of cause is,
I cant take back the pain that you feel
The betrayal that I caused
To the man that loved me unconditionally and selflessly
With love so dear and soft.
like cne on an adolescent face
I have blemished that kind of love
And I am afraid you will never feel the same again.

Once, twice and again
Gruesomely tortured and crippled your tender heary
Full of love and patience.

I am ashamed,
for breaking my promises,
endurance hasn't been very awarding to you.
I guess all you feel now is regret
You say "I loved someone who didn't deserve it".
But deep down the contours of my heart
I crumble and i fall
I hurt and i break into pieces
If not me then who deserves you?
Maybe am just selfish.

With tears which you now regard as fake
Because you have come to get used to the lies they tell
I hurt.
Craving to see you smile even grin
To hear you say you love me again
To be in your arms
To feel your warm and tender love.

I haven't been the best you deserve,
I should have known better and
I should have changed earlier
Put you first in whatever decision I was making
And I shouldn't have taken you for granted
If i had done that I would have escaped the embarrassment of hurting you.

But baby if ypu love me as you say
If you need me too
U am not asking for a chance,or an opportunity for that can be missed.
I am asking for love to make things right again
I am asking for your faith
to restore that lost smile on your face
that glow that used to be in your eyes,
that ego that i destroyed
and glue together the pieces of that broken heart.

I don't want to tell you that I promise you
For you will ask me
what are promises if thay can be broken?
But i am assuring you that i have learnt my leasons
Never will I take a man that I love for granted.
The months have pass us by and I have felt what it is not to feel your love
My darling Goodrich,accept my apology.
For you are my knight with a shining armour
My lamp in the darkest of nights
All i need.
And I AM SORRY!

Author's Note

ignore grammer problems. please review this poem and add ideas in how i can improve my writing thank you in

Reviews

[barleygirl]

I do not like the first two stanzas very much becuz it sounds like mindless moaning and that never appeals to anyone, as far as trying to come to terms with wrong actions becuz it's guilt-provoking & it says: "look at me! I'm the one suffering here!" Not a good way to start an apology.

Now, the rest of your poem is superb. That's the kind of apology that's written with emotional intelligence . . . you SHOW that you know why an apology is needed & everything you point out is realistic, as far as the dumb s**t we all do in relationships, not doing our best, being human & failing. You paint that scenario in a way that makes us love the person writing DESPITE her flaws. There's nothing worse than a person mindlessly apologizing & it sounds like she doesn't even know why, but just trying to get her way back into that person's life. This does not have that superficial self-concerned goal. It really does feel like honest contrition, so I deem this writer FORGIVEN! *wink! wink!* Fondly, Margie

[Poetrylover]

thank you for reviewing Barley girl I appreciate