I'm breaking in

A brave man is a man who dares to look the Devil in the face and tell him he is a Devil. James A. Garfield

To hide from the devil

in a shadow, in a corner

searching for a way out

a flight in my thoughts

I’m turning myself inside out

 

losing the essence

as a needle in the haystack

I push myself, backwards

and further if it is necessary

 

the beast with the horns

is roaring and cursing

he’s ripping the heaven apart

with his lightning as never before

 

I’m nothing more now

then a piece of dust

an ounce of air

a sigh and less

an atom on the run

 

I split myself even further on

in light and energy

and look and look

the monster shakes his head

 

I’m breaking in

or is it contrariwise

explode in thousand pieces

and with me he has forever

disappeared.

 

© Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere

12/10/2014

 

 

 

Reviews

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Man vs himself - the greatest of all conflicts, the one we have internally. Sometimes to destroy the 'devil' inside we must also destroy 'ourselves', or at least what once was ourselves. An interesting write of one's battle with personal demons. Good job Rudi!

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

Thanks, FT, you capture the message in those lines, glad reading your comments. :) Rudi

[sereenaoutloud]

Such a strong piece to go with such a powerful photo! To fight our inner demons. I walsy say we are our own worst enemies. You can feel the struggle throughout this piece. Another great write!

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

Thank you, Sereena, for passing by, reading and commenting my poem. Glad you liked it. :) Rudi

[Confuser]

Rudi: The inner demon I suppose...the righteous part of our soul forever searching but tempted, even with our thoughts....but really: as you say...maybe I'm taking it the wrong way, but in the scheme of "things" in our universe, were are so tiny...fleeting thoughts..love your descriptions: like a needle in a haystack...Wonderful as always...Thank you so very much. Dale

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

Indeed, our inner demons and the struggle against them, on a milk way scale we are but atoms, even less. Thanks for passing by, reading and commenting, Dale. Have a fine day. :) Rudi

[Confuser]

You're welcome. I haven't forgot about The Book Stone: I will read it...I appreciate your patience. You have a wonderful day too!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

better to be straightforward in our moral and ethical values...rather than passive/ aggressive...

look the monster that sometimes is ourselves right in the eye---and punch.

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

Right on, Jacob. It's a big struggle sometimes, but I'm always happy to conquer it. Thanks for visiting and commenting on my poem. Have a good day. :) Rudi