Insomnia

A new development- anyone who can relate advice is wanted.

Eyes swollen
black
scratchy and itchy.
so tired
weary
I can't do anything.

Pillow
I hate you.
I want to love you
but I hate you.

Toss
Turn
Roll
Tear up the sheets.

Starfish
Arms and legs out.
stretched far
try close?
wrap one arm around the pillow?
Nope
No luck.

Then off to the side of the bed
one arm hanging off
a foot hanging off
a leg hanging off...
No.

D****t. I have to
pull them back up again and starfish
one more time...
feel the dog sleeping next to me.
Can I sleep now?
Nope
reverse starfish on my back
Nothing works.
What time is it?
I have 4 more hours.
It's not time to get up
Yet.

Toss
Turn
2 more hours now.
Sorry girl
I know I keep waking you up.
You were sleeping so peacefully.
I want to join you
But
Where are my sheets?

Pillow
I hate you.
Alarm clock
I hate you even more.

My brain is on go mode
What is that song?
What is the last lyric?
STOP. It doesn't matter.
Let it go.
Just STOP.

What is that poem I was writing?
Can't remember the last line
d****t
It doesn't matter
let it go

"Let it go"
Oh great
singing again
Thanks Disney.

Breathe
In
Out.
Watch the dog sleep
In
Out Again.
Relax.

Squeeze your toes
Squeeze your calves
Squeeze your thighs
Just squeeze everything and
relax.
Try to let it pass.

I am on a river bank
watching the thoughts go by
and trying not to jump on board.
Trying to let them pass
Trying to sleep.
Deep breath.

Lay there singing that damn song.
I hate the song
I hate my pillow.

Get up and
drink some water.
Take a pill.
finally
asleep
but it's 5
and the alarm is at 7
So tired
I hate you alarm clock.
Black eyes

"Are you sick?"
How to answer...

Reviews

[R Smith]

if the development is the style of the poem then I think its great, I have been where this goes and its a waking nightmare, then when the sleep comes its 2 minutes before the alarm kills you, I like the word structure and the easy flow of words with a theme everyone can relate to, excellent writing bravo :)

[Nadia Gerassimenko]

Ugh. I remember, I used to dread going to sleep knowing I would have to wake up at 6:30 in the morning. The thought of waking up so early paralyzed and asphyxiated me so badly that I couldn't go to sleep and just like you, I tried to do the usuals...breathe deeply, clear my head, count sheep, etc. Nothing ever works. Except some kind of medication to shut me off like a machine. Heh, I take melatonin now, because I realized I have a dysfunctional body that doesn't know when it's supposed to go to sleep. Does wonders. Good write, I relate!

[Bare Trees]

I'm up every night. Once that happens I can never get back to sleep. I like your descriptions a lot. Starfish, one arm hanging off. haha Good poem.

[shruthi]

Wow.... lackin sleep reallyy is horibble.....i feel like u've wrote it out of experience....!!!
but truly amazing words and ruby it was really long... :p but i enjoyed it utterly

[yuki]

nicely done rubyomma really liked this :)

[Mayank]

I am going through same phase, it's not that I am not sleepy but I am pushing myself for no reason, I sometime sleep for straight 14 hours and sometimes not even an hour.

[Ashira Macy]

Insomnia is the worst, I feel your pain dear. I wish I could offer some kind of advice on how to get rid of it, but I haven't figured that out myself yet.