Silence

My thoughts on silence I'm trying to turn into poem format

Silence shows strength
I have been told
Resilience, wisdom, and patience
But why does it feel like weakness
Subservience, lack of intellect, and surrender
If I don't communicate my true thoughts
Do I exist anywhere other than my mind
Silence feels like being defeated
Muted screams
Silence is a powerful tool when used correctly
I am told
But how will I know best
When to speak or be silent
I despise stifled expression
Is that self serving
Maybe ones voice is just as powerful as ones silence
To be heard always an egomaniac fantasy
Is my ego so big
I admire those who sit quietly
As if knowing secrets to be shared when earned
Instead I am a noisy siren
Trying to alarm everyone of the injustice I see
I find my methods ineffective at times
Again I contemplate silence