Second Fiddle

I was first...

She's the one.
The one you touched,
The one you felt,
The lie you told so well.
The truth that had us undone.

How could you?
Convince me, make me believe
I was jealous,
Suspicion was insanity,
That you were all that was true?

Knowing all the while, you had her
And still you lay next to me.
Dreaming of your secrets,
Conjuring your excuses,
Maintaining the facade of once we were.

Alas... she won.
You to her can go freely now,
And lay next to her in the sunlight without fear or deception.
Yet, how could that not lose its appeal?
When all she ever was, was in the darkness secret fun?

Hmmm... such a sting in maturity.
A realization that must be seen.
For surely if you could do it too me,
What would stop you from doing it to her?
Ah, what a foundation to build your security.

Somewhere, inside that blackened heart that she possesses,
How could she not feel somehow in the middle?
Never really chosen,
Merely convenient.
An expendable condiment of adventure.
She must know that no matter what she represses,
I always will have come first,
So doomed is she her fate to always play the second fiddle.

Author's Note

Let me know your thoughts on this one... still working out the details and love your feedback

Reviews

[Tabby Mac]

WOW! This is very relatable to anyone who has dated this species of man. For it it is a species I'm confident of that. I am glad you wrote this piece. It's encouraging I bet for those who are currently struggling with these feelings.
Which by the way come through brilliantly!
My experience with this species was about 20 years ago now but reading this triggered all the very feelings that I felt!
Remember me through your process becasue I would love to read your final product. Although I enjoy a good rhyming piece I like this one as it is. Mostly because of all that it says!! And it's meaning behind it.
Love it! If you can't relate you this piece and it's just a subject your writing about know that it is spot on. If you did overcome this situation, well done and HUGS!
Tabby

[EcstaticEuphoria]

Tabby! Thank you so much for the excellent and heartfelt review. Sorry that you too have felt the experience as i too have, but knowing that others have survived it and hopefully that these experiences can encourage others means so much! Thank you again and hugs right back!

[Suhd]

It is so good and thoughtful. Bravo!

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Wow so filled with vitriol and hurt to bursting miserable anger brewed from feeling abused and deceived and let down. Well expressed.

[EcstaticEuphoria]

Thank you so much for your review! Heartfelt and thoughtful! 😉

[Phill Oz O'fee]

What a poetically brave testimonial – it shows creativity as well as courage! Great combination in a write! By the way; researchers from Binghamton University in the US and University College London looked at how happy men and women were before, during and after a breakup. The study showed that if a woman is cheated on, the lessons she learns can be 'evolutionary adaptive' helping her select a much better mate. In contrast, the ‘other woman’ ends up with a partner with a track record of being deceptive and a cheat, meaning that she is the long-term loser. Kudos …:-)

[EcstaticEuphoria]

This is great information!! Thank you for sharing! For sure it's been a course changing phenomenon and one that I would never give back or wish to relive. Please stop by again soon!

[KCthelastboyscout]

Can I assume this is coming from personal experience? this is a rare and unique treasure I have read in the cafe. I can see every word has come from your soul to write this. you have drawn from your pain and written something very relatable to other people who have been through this. thank you.

[EcstaticEuphoria]

Thank you so much for your review! I appreciate you taking your time to read it and provide me feedback! I just posted my newest poem today, hope that you will enjoy!

[Cae]

I'm really impressed by everything I've read of yours so far. This one in particular is my favorite, as I connect to it from situations in my past.

[EcstaticEuphoria]

Thank you so much Cae! I really appreciate the review and your feedback, it means a lot!

[emmajoy]

The eternal triangle tattered and splattered with blood! Finely written whether fact or fiction.. hurts like hell to read, writing it must or might have been even harder.

[EcstaticEuphoria]

Thank you so much for the fantastic review!

[Call me hopeless]

Damn I hope this didn't actually happen but it has the emotion of truth.

[EcstaticEuphoria]

Thank you for your review! It's the darkness that really shows our light sometimes.

[For Play]

Relationships are made awkward by the imbalance of rankings arbitrarily assigned. Very thorough treatment of this frustration.

[EcstaticEuphoria]

Ahhh relationships, sometimes its a wonder if it's worth it. Haha thank you so much for your review!

[Paul Bell]

You answered your own question. He'll do it to her.
She'll probably do it to him. In hindsight. You actually win in the long run.

[EcstaticEuphoria]

Thank you!