Rejected

When you got nothing left to lose

I finally lost everything which I held very dear 

All the things I would always have near 

Yet it seems in way I been replaced 

Every new face has made me a disgrace 

I am the keeper of all of the secrets 

I am the keeper of the gates which lock my mind 

Behind the gate is a wondrous thing 

Loads of information going on in my brain 

In this vast universe I must place everything in boxed 

Everything needs order, everything needs structure 

Even my emotions need to be in check always 

Have a correct response to the simplest of situations 

The way I behave is very very systematic 

The way I appear is almost mechanical 

I am like a computer always with the correct response 

I hold in my hands the key to the universe 

I watch over the world like moving pieces on a chess board 

I care for them all and I want them all happy 

I want to keep them all safe I dont want them to die 

Sometimes I have to wonder why do I try? 

From the minute I was young was told to consider other people 

Any time I did for myself I was called a selfish worthless child 

EVery time others did wrong I was also punished 

Forced to care for the world to this very day 

Everything I do is so careful and calculated  

The more people I have on ropes the more it adds up 

Sometimes there so many people my brain it just fries 

Like too many windows in a computer I feel like I going to die 

but it seems recently for whatever reason the system was wiped 

Everyone decided they needed someone different 

Now this has happens 1000s times before 

but it seems unknown to me some I love more than others 

The ones I held so deep to my heart 

They decided to replace me or reject me completely

Now I am shattered and lost I dont know where to go 

I have no reason to stay and no where to go 

On the bright side I not having to panic from the overload of people 

I guess I should be happy as this is more peaceful 

I carried the burden of the universe on my shoulders 

and it seems at last for once I can leave 

Nothing here is stopping me 

I dont have to worry and take care of everything 

Since everyone is happy and no one any longer needs me 

This is what is feels like to be completely rejected 

Cant even describe what im feeling right now.. 

Its all most like nothing.. 

I lost everything. 

Reviews

[Jamestown]

Wow, you and I sound a lot alike when you were describing careful calculating things
reminds me of my over thinking:( and I too can relate to feeling rejected
got divorced after 15 years to start over, hang in there friend, it gets better!
Please read life's problems and keep your head up my pieces,
there uplifting and will make u smile, thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[nazia]

oh my.. this is something every person can relate to. there are times when all of us feel completely lost and clueless.. we know not where to go but you should hold on to the faith inside you.. it will lead you and guide you to the right oath.. A well expressed work :)