Committed to no commitment

I know that I am young but I am struggling to commit myself to anyone

Love oh what a wonderful thing you are, the best thing to happen to any human being
I wish to have experienced you further when I fell into you
Even though I don't know if what I felt was you but it felt so good and at that time in his eyes I felt save and I could see my beauty
At that moment nothing mattered, only his words brought me peace
It is so vivid, the memory of him and another girl walking hand in hand, even at that moment I had noticed that I had lost him
I saw the same smile he used to have whenever he was with me
Now I am afraid of feeling any kind of emotion
I have been from one guy to the next and I haven't felt any safety or any sort of belonging
All the guys loved me and still love
But I am broken to the point of no return, I am unable to commit myself
Lonely has become my name

Author's Note

It feels good to write, just view my writing please

Reviews

[Davidgeo]

I would say this fits the description of an 'abandonment complex'. Which isn't inherently the worst thing in the world when you're young but can lead to disappointment and self loathing as you get older. While some people really don't give a s**t about long term relationships most of us just convince ourselves of that for reasons we don't want to consciously acknowledge.