Still Haunts Me

My fears in my life come back to me all th time. They affect me everyday.

Shot down
Put down
Kick me till I'm numb
I can't keep pretending
It doesn't send me back
To the days of my hell

One tear
Goodbye dear
Leave me in the gutter
I'll whimper
And I'll weep
Cuz my past still haunts me

Scream at me
Fight with me
Send me back there
Let me sleep in my tears
Scream out my fears
And wallow on my knees

I can't do it
I'm not that strong anymore
Breaking down piece by piece
Yelling to the sun
Howling to the moon
The pain I feel

Stays in me
Grows in me
Hides within me
Don't call me rock
Don't call me soft
No one knows my name

No one sees
What's inside of me
Or feels the pain
I'm breaking
I'm shattering
My body collapsing

I'm crushed
I'm broken
My heart only dust
What is my name
Do you know my name
Me here is your imagination

I'm weak
I'm broken
Run out of luck tokens
Merely a cat on its last life
Mankind on the edge
Holding on by a single hand

But when you say that to e
That I’m nothing
Weak
And forever alone
Flashbacks come back
And I fall in two

My shell
Then me
Exposed
I can't keep lying
Saying I don't care
When there is a reality

Do you know me
The broken silly girl
One who can’t look back
The pain
The grief

My past still haunts me.......