Test of faith

I've been down this dusty road before 

This time it's different

It is difficult

Because I didn't expect this to happen

all over again 

How can I even begin to take steps 

on this slippery slope

I am afraid

I won't be able to make it 

To see the other side 

Of a different you.

You see i

I can't watch you slowly disappear before my very eyes .

One day you will wake up 

Not even know my name 

You will snap at me 

Put things into wrong places 

I  don't know if I can 

Have enough strength to get through this .

God I can't do this 

Where are you 

Iam hanging by a thread 

It's about to break �'"

I am broken 

I  don't see your purpose in all of this

Perhaps I feel  

You don't love me 😭

But deep down I know that isn't true 

I just want to blame you God 

I am finding hard to trust you 

Please God help me to try and understand your ways