I Am Diagnosed With Depression Forgotton CHILDHOOD LEFT TO BE ABUSED BY BOTH MY PARENTS.......A Story by ROSALINDdepression
When I was a child and that is a long time ago now, I never had affection.
I grew up with a mother who was mentally unstable and wasn't able to give me what I needed I lacked stability Love and care. often she would abuse me physically and I cut myself off from reality. and day dreamed a lot at school and it affected my school learning so i became a dunce at the bottom of the class. and I became an outcast and had no friends, the ones i did have made my life hell . life at school I came a target for bullies. I grew up feeling alone frightened and sacred. I ran away once and the police came to get me. Once my mother hit me with a brush and took me to the doctor she said i split my head open on a coffee table. But it wasn't true she told the doctor LIES HOW ON EARTH WAS I STILL ALLOWED TO LIVE WITH HER.... i DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I WENT THROUGH ALL THIS PAIN AS i child .. My Dads brother was a policeman he turned a blind eye and what makes it worse they were both Christians I have never questioned them about it because they are getting on a bit .. But that doesn't mean that it still hurts, Yes it hurts like crazy because they did nothing.. . But I am glad children have more of a chance to be rescued by the authorities At least most of them will not suffer the way I did...... I think that is why I suffer from long bouts of depression. ..... I struggle with my relationship with my husband. And with God... I try not to let it take control but all the flash backs would come rolling back in my mind ........ i just take my life from day to day. At the moment I am being assessed by a Doctor but she thinks that this depression that i am suffers is related to my childhood... I don't want to be on medication and feel doped up I just want to be free....within myself .... I have wrote countless poems it was a journey that began last year 2011 April..... and that has been really good therapy and healing for me don't get me wrong I have changed a lot only by the grace of God. and I am still finding out who I am and hope to be. It is my dream to get my poetry and funny Mr Ketchup stories published one day AND i STRONGLY BELIEVE IT WILL HAPPEN. i THANK GOD FOR MY LIFE NOW AND PRAY THAT i WILL BE ABLE TO HELP OTHERS ...... © 2012 ROSALINDReviews
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1 Review Added on August 28, 2012 Last Updated on August 28, 2012 AuthorROSALINDEDINBURGH, lothian , United KingdomAboutHello my name is Rosalind and I first started writing poetry in April of 2011. I am a born again Christian and have a wonderful relationship with father God I would have never imagined for one second.. more..Writing
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