THE CURSE OF UNFORGIVENESS.........

IT SADLY AFFECTS OUR RELATIONSHIPS

This is a story about a mother who new nothing but a life of rejection
abuse and failure.
A story that must be told one that has creep ed through the generations of our family one that has affected the past present but hopely not the future.
A cycle that clearly that needs to be broken, one of deep wounds that fester into
bitterness between daughter's Mother's Dads sister's Aunts and uncles brothers
the list is endless.
Past hurts affecting present relationships.
Un forgivness, bitterness, selfishness, resentfulness
People stuck in a cloud of sadness without a hope and future.
destroying their life's with anger holding on to past hurts not letting or choosing
not to move on.
No matter what in this world we will face uncertainties, it is what we do with them that counts.
We must not play the victim nor point the finger.?
Less we judge the failure we bring judgement on ourselves.
often its not about the person, but about us.
if we only just could see the hurt we cause others.
Is sometimes worse than the actual misfortune that we encounter ourselves.
condemnation  causes us to have low self-esteem, and we lose faith in yourself
But only if You Let it.
We need to move away from past and let things go.
And Yes who says that it isn't easy because I should Know.
I had to live with things not being perfect
such as losing my virginity at the age of 13.. AND i only the know the scar and
wound that it leaves behind. not feeling pure....the sadness of innocence
been stolen but I choose not to hold on to the anger and move on with my life.
not matter how painful this may be.
I do not know what else I can say to You.
But I cannot keep on condemning myself over and over again.
I couldn't give You what You needed and I am sorry for that please believe me when You are sad I am Sad when You feel Ugly I feel ugly too.
You ARE NOT A LONE IN THESE EMOTIONS....... 
And I will regret not being the mother that you wanted me to be.
all these many Years ago.....
But In My heart I will always Love You
But please don't keep on punishing me ....
Because it is breaking my spirit.....
I hope you will understand .....
And I will pray that God will quickly heal You.
Love Mum xx