Silence

I am screaming

I call my pain and my fear to the wind

I shout and I cry

Why is no one listening

Why does no one hear

I scream louder

I beg and plead for someone to hear me

People surround me

Buffeted from every direction by bodies

Not a single head turns

Not a single person hears

Not a single person listens

A sea of people and I am entirely alone

So I fall

My body stays upright, standing silently

I am no longer in the driver's seat

They say the eyes are the window to the soul

Well my eyes are my window to the world

I am locked inside my own mind

I look out and watch everything go by

Inside I am still shouting

Still screaming and howling

But outside I stand tall

I am silent, I am still

No one questions it

They believe the lie

So much more palatable than the truth

The truth is I am trapped

I am trapped and screaming for help

I built a box inside my own head

I did it to keep myself safe

But I didn’t build a door

To late I have realised that I am trapped

I can’t get out

No one can hear me

I am trapped in the prison I built myself

I just want to be free