Soul

There is an ocean inside me

It is vast and deep

If it has limits, I have yet to find them.

On the surface it is warm and full of life

The world outside working its magic

People like the sun, they give life

They give love

They give hope

Like a stone I sink

Deeper and deeper

Deeper is colder

The warmth barely makes it down

But still, there is life

Creatures fight through the currents, wild and dangerous

I do my best to keep them there

Still sinking

With a thud I hit it

The ocean floor

There is nothing around

A huge expanse of nothing

It is cold here

Dark, dangerous

I am being crushed

If I don’t start to float soon I will never get out

Did you know there are lakes and rivers down here?

Pools and flowing streams of water

Underwater

This world is strange

Every so often things will drift down from the surface

So I can get a hint of what’s happening above

There is still life up there

Still warmth

Still light

Still love

But not here

Here there is cold and dark

An occasional carcass

The dead bodies of my dreams and hopes

This is where they come to rot

In stillness and silence

Back on the surface, the sky darkens

Storm clouds brewing

The sea boils over with rage

I stay where I am

Safe

And cold

And dark

There may be no sunlight here, but at least there are no storms.

At least I am safe from the storms

Cold is better than fear

Better than rage

It is what I deserve

Until I can tame the storms, I will choose the cold crush of darkness

And I will watch as the bodies of my dreams rain down around me.

There is an ocean inside me

I have chosen to stay in the deep

I don’t think I will ever swim my way back to the surface

But I think I’m okay with that.

Reviews

[light and ashes]

Are you really ok with that? I have a really hard time believing that, and if you are you shouldnt be.....
This is so well-written, and honestly mostly it is pretty damn impressive. There is so much to it that I could just go on and on and on..but I find your conclusion a little concerning.
Rise to the surface, love, if not now, then eventually.

[N15D]

This was deep! It is like the subject matter is speaking of depression or just giving up on dreams and hopes for a mundane life. The bottom of the ocean I feel is settling and conforming. Where as the surface is where we take risks and try what others tell us is impossible. Great work