Lonely Girl

How I feel among my so-called 'year' at school. It may seem down, but to be honest, I don't care. It's not exactly a poem, but it lets my feelings show...

Everyone I talk with

Everyone I'm around

Whenever they seem to talk

I always get put down

They seem to look upon me

With dislike within their eyes

And even though I think it's not true

I can see behind the lies.

 

Nobody seems to like me

But I don't really care

I would actually not mind

If I wasn't truly there.

Maybe it's just me

The fact that I'm so quiet

I can't seem to see

That we'll never get along.

 

Even though there are a few

Who listen when I'm down

They always seem to cheer me up

Whenever they're around.

I'm happy that they're there

Even though I'm alone

That make me feel like some do care

And not even those at home.

 

I wish I just didn't belong

With those in my year

I think it would be best

If I just disappear.

Disappear from the school

Disappear from the world

Hide within my home

And feel like a lonely little girl.

Author's Note

I have had about enough with everyone in my year, there only seems to be two, more than likely, one person I actually talk with and get along with.

Reviews

[GorgEOus NiGhtMarE]

Everyone feels like this at times. I, for one, felt this way through most of my adolescence. You've just got to be patient and look around. I'm sure their are plenty of people who actually do care. Its just that sometimes you get lost in the gloom and find it harder to see. :) another great poem.

[Rose]

Thanks, and yeah... there are people who care, but there's times when I feel like I'm alone, and always will be, but I know that's not true.

[rishi4u]

NICE ONE, THE RHYME SCHEME IS SIMPLE AND GOOD

[Rose]

Thank you very much :)

[dw817]

⊰ℛℛ⊱
Something my Dr taught me years ago, dear Rose, is to never NEVER use the words, "You always," or, "You never." Few things in life are so black and white or absolute.

Instead change those to, "You sometimes do," or, "You sometimes forget to." And that will make all the difference in the world.

And you are not alone in your beliefs. I was bullied unmercifully at all the schools I attended. Even my 'girlfriend,' Tyr, was cruel to me quite often. I sometimes wondered if I was just amusing for her is why we kept company.

In any case, =IF= you are being bullied by other schoolmates, you need to let others know - either your teacher, the principal, the school nurse, or your parents. Someone - don't be silent all this time - and most importantly - don't let them get you down.

You have too beautiful a spirit to let that happen ...

[Rose]

Thank you very much, but now that I've left school I can't sort those things out, but my spirit still remains high as ever.

[dw817]

Well just don't let school follow you around long after you are out of it. I dream about school almost every night - my Dr says it's cause I have unresolved issues from there. Yet - I ask him, when will they be resolved ? And as for that, he doesn't know.

[KeeD]

This was touching and at the same time a lot of people can relate with this feeling, I know there was a time when I was in school I felt like that. Now even outta school I feel that lonely feeling, that feeling of having almost no friends, no one to listen and no one that cares.. life is filled with this depression, i can't wait till the day i make an impression and the world turns around and smiles my way ending what seems to be this ever lasting lonely day. Great poem , kudos ^^ (HUGS)

[Rose]

Thanks, I appreciate that there are so many people who relate to this poem. *hugs back*

[Alex Falkner]

I have to say I would have related to this very strongly when I was younger, it would have had me in tears.
I was a loner since the day I started school at five years old, it stayed that way untill I was 14, when I made some "friends" that weren't friends.
I feel the need to share a little advice, tell me to piss off if you wish, I will understand as I would have had the same reaction many moons ago.
When in search of a friend, be aware of these two things,
1: if they constantly ask for favors, borrowing things, never returning the favor or things borrowed, they are not friends.
2: they constantly talk about themself, gossip about you and don't pay any mind to how you feel at all, they only talk to you when they want something, they are not friends.
I am now 31 years old, I have no close friends at all, I have suffered with agorophobia for many years, and my upbringing has made me very suspicious and untrusting of people, this has prevented me from making friends.
I say all this in the hopes you will not end up like me, I am happy to the most part but loneliness does get the better of me at times.
Don't worry about how many friends you have, just make sure the ones you do have are good ones, quality is far better than quantity.
Hope you find your happiness.

Tammy.

[Rose]

Thanks, I know that the ones I have are true friends because the two things you said, they aren't them.

[Alex Falkner]

Thats good to know.
Hope you have a good day.
:)

[.]

I swear I felt a tear go down my face, such an emotional poem, can definitely relate! 100/100

[Lozzie]

I can relate to that!!!! When i was in year 9 (2 years ago) I was having massive fights with the girls i was sitting with, and me being me, no-one else wanted me around anyway so for a time they just pushed me around but do not stand for it!!!!
There are ALWAYS people to talk to! Find your intrest in find others with those interest! I found a new bunch of girls and they are one of the best thing that ever happened to me! I know you will find someone to hang with (and smaller groups are good becuase they are tighter).
There is nothing wrong with hanging with people from other years either... i have always found it really hard to get along with people my age... so i spend heaps of time with people older and younger than me...
Do you know of any extra-cirriculum activities you could get involved with?? You can always find friends there...?

I just want you to know that you are nto the only one who has felt excluded, DON"T EVER FORGET THAT!!! There are always other people who have felt the same as you and they will be willing to help... You just have to keep your head up high... there are always people who will accept you... you just need to be patient... trust me??

[Rose]

There are some groups I could get involved in and I know that there are people just like me who have been excluded from groups and from their 'friends' as well.

[Lozzie]

People who have shared common feeling and faced common situation will understand you... You need to take a chance (if you feel like it... i don't want you to feel pressured) and try to befriend others who don't have many friends... for them aswell as you... and you never know... you maybe a very clsoe group of people...

[Rose]

I understand, and I will try give it a try, however, I doubt anyone will become my friend.

[Lozzie]

But it is that doubt that will stop you from letting them... If you doubt they will like you then it will cloud your judgement and you will not beleive what you see when they try to be your friend...

[Rose]

True, thanks.

[Lozzie]

You welcome :) I just hope everything becomes easier... :)

[Rose]

I hope so too

[Jynx]

Duuddeeee~~~~ sttooppppp making meeee cryyyyyyyyy~~~~~ :( it's so sad yet strangely beautiful at the sane time. Also very relatable. I can feel where you're coming from and I know what it's like to be there :( but cheer up dude pl0z? :3 foah meh? ^~^

[Rose]

I'll try cheer up. I promise. But only if you at least come hang with us 2 days during the week, say Tuesday and Thursday, as Elise would be with us then as well... please.... for me? :)

[Jynx]

I go down the street for lunch :/ but ill try come up at break yeah? :)

[Jynx]

Also

[Jynx]

Get your arse on fb :3

[Rose]

ok and ok XD

[Katherine Enma Pineappl..]

I could relate with you. Your straight forward approach here gets your idea expressed more effectively.

I, too, struggle with the problem of getting along with people in my year. Perhaps it was my quirks that made them distance themselves for me or they just laugh at them.

It's painful that they don't even try and understand why I'm like this.

But you should stick to those few people who you get along with. It helps tremendously. They would be the people to help you in these rough times and make your time with other people much more bearable.

It's good that you write. It takes your mind off of things.

I'm sorry I'm not much of help because alas, I do not know how to handle those judgmental people too.

[Rose]

It's fine, thank you. I'm glad there are people who understand where I am coming from with this, and know exactly how I feel. I always had a feeling like I was the only one who felt this way and needed to express it so people could know the truth.

[Phoenix]

I used to be like this when i was a lot younger I feel your words in this

[Rose]

I'm glad there are people who understand