my mind

I feel almost dead

my mind is numb

i cant cry i cant scream

i try but i  cant do anything

the tv just annoys me

the music just angers me

the people just further destroy me

the only thing i can do is sleep

 

Sleep my only escape from this cruel life

Id much rather be left in my dreams

Id much rather that then live in the torture that is my life

Im respected cared for and loved in my dreams

Im banished crushed disrespected loathed and luaghed at in my life

 

The sad thing is even my nightmares are better then my reality

Am I a bad person just serving there sentance in hell

is this the way im cursed to spend eternity

when i sit down and think about it i really cant tell

 

I would kill myself

but what would that do

after all im already in hell

so i just cut into myself like i always do

 

cutting they make fun of that too

but they dont understand

they dont understand what the voices tell me to do

they dont even realize there whole lifes just a complete sham

 

the voices never stop

peolpe call me crazy

they dont realize my madness will not be stopped

the more they tuant poke and discuss it drives me to be even more crazy

Im just meant to live a life of torture my drive to survive has dropped.

 

 

Reviews

[Angel Bird]

Very powerful and touching piece! It deeply touches me and provokes a lot of thoughts. This is a really great write! I can vividly relate to its essence.
The cutting and self mutilation as a lot of other things like eating disorders, bulimia and so on ... are in reality a cry without words for help...
An excellent write.
Kudos!

[Platypus]

Wow this is amazing i love the way u show emotion in the poem

[ah]

i dont like seeing the 4 times in a row, the word the is a weakening word in a poem... and rhyme with ending 3 lines in a row with "me" just doesnt please a poets eyes... but deep write, and it connects the reader to your thoughts and is VERY vividly powerful, great imagery, just work on the wording a little bit and it will be much stronger

[Chahklat]

Wonderful.

A madness, it can't be cured because everyone else can't see.
The only person to realize the torment is you. Its a thorn in the flesh.

Or at least that is the impression I got from your poem.

[Tiffany]

Wow, I find it inspiring, strong piece, it really shows emotion.

Well done! I love it, your a true poet.
This defines most poems in my mind, I hope I might be better at writing poems so I could inspire people like you have to me.