365 Days

A goodbye to Gambit

A year..
What is this in a lifetime of them?
A year ago I was happy in love and safe in your arms
Trying to hide the guilt I felt as each day passed
Over years watching my dreams become your own
Always I felt I was too old for you
Stealing your time and life away
I think you knew and understood this
Always reassuring me I was your everything
Then you were gone..
Like a small vessel in a fog
No word, no call, no presence, no contact
The grief I can not even begin to explain
You see, I had started to believe
Almost four years had passed
Could we really be forever?
You left me a widow of sorts in weeds
I nursed that pain and cried bitter tears
My life flourished from them around me
Full of positive aspects and new doors opening
If I could turn back time..
Is all the good done since worth the repair of a broken heart?
Would I just be delaying the same outcome for a later date?
I must turn from these thoughts now
It's been a year..
As the future unfolds I know
It is time to finally pack you away.

Be well

Author's Note

If you review this, I am sorry but I will not respond to it here. I appreciate all reads and comments. In the case of this particular piece however, the only thing harder than writing it, would be having to constantly reread it.
Thank you,
Rogue

Reviews

[Shivam Murari]

Its a picturesque portrayal like marking dates and events in a calender and at the end of the year sitting down and reflecting back. The reflection consists of honesty, bravery, anguish, agony, sorrow, everything. But putting that in the form of a poem is a hard thing. Putting that in the form of an EFFECTIVE POEM, as this one, is incredible. You are gifted with it, dear friend! I loved it!

[Angi]

Your heartbreak shines clear through. Honest, brave, and something that needed to be written. I shows on the page.

[Gobinder Singh Dhindsa]

Nice.. Keep it up.. Do u read mine 2 "ANGUISH" If possible then gives ur review..tc

[Samuel Dickens]

Certainly, it seems honest and from the heart. The pain and disappointment is on full display, but then ends on a positive note. Yes, packing it away is the thing to do.

[Sami Khalil]

A great confessional and full of bittersweet memories and painful goodbyes. Sorry for the loss and I hope things will turn out to better fulfillment and greater light... Hang in there and be strong...
You don't have to answer ... Just sharing...:)

[Frieda P]

Perhaps one day you can read this and it not affect you as such, bittersweet & final...sorry you had the need to purge this, hopefully it was cathartic.

[Richard Man]

You have already said you appreciate all reads. So there is no purpose in painfully revisiting a gap.... no point going into outer space for a breath of air.... there's no recreation in a vacuum.... I admire your bravery.... in admitting "it's time to finally pack you away".... said with sadness and nostalgia but not apparently with anger, otherwise you would have put him out with the trash.