An Act of KindnessA Story by Rocki-sanWhen a simple road trip turns out wrong, Corin is left alone, lost and confused. Having lost the meaning of happiness and compassion he continues on his trip to find if kindness really does exists.The
house was like a black spot to the small, cozy, white-fenced suburban neighborhood.
Run down, dark and uninviting, a classic haunted house that would receive many
visits on October 31st from thrill-seeking trick-or-treaters. It was
the only thing that told the truth on this street, it represented everything
that went on inside, not a neatly cut lawn or perfectly white paint finish
masking what went on behind closed doors. The only lie that came from the
daunting house was the simple well kept sign hanging off the door, “de Triana
Family.” It meant that the family inside was
quite content, that even though they lived in a dark, malevolent looking house,
they were proud and happy. Proud? Maybe. Happy? No. There wasn’t even an actual
family inside the house to be happy or proud. How did I know? I knew because it used to be my
house. I sat on the hood of my black ’63 Impala
which I had spent almost two years restoring to pristine condition. I had also
spent a lot of money which was probably why I was always broke. But I was proud
of the car and more proud of how I had actually accomplished something. Many
classic car buffs I’d met in my years of travelling told me I should enter it
in classic automobile competitions and I would probably win. Doing this,
though, was the least of my worries just now. I
stared at the home of my childhood, if it could even have been called a home. I
didn’t remember one good memory coming from the house, out of all the places
we’d lived in, this one was my least favorite and that was saying something. If
those walls could talk, they’d tell the most horrific story that would even
have Steven King hiding under the covers. The distorted hedges, nightmarish
shingles and dying lawn always seemed to find its way into my dreams and, yet,
here I was. Why had I come back? It’d been a few years since I’d even
set foot near this town, or even thought about it for that matter. No one
really liked to think about the things they despised and this house, this town,
was that one thing I couldn’t stand. I especially hated this stretch of road
where the houses were a little too perfect to be real, not a single blemish
anywhere on the property. I wondered how many times the neighbors had begged
the old hag to redecorate or even offered to do it for her only to run off
ducking for cover. My mother, she was a piece of work. “Hey,
Corin,” I looked over to see Zayn’s nose stuck in a book, where it was usually
found. “Do you know what ‘Farah’ really means?” “No,” I said. “Wicked and immoral? Demonic? Crazy old
bat?” “No,” he looked over the top of the pages at me with a
smirk. “It means joy.” “Yeah, right,” I scoffed. “Really, look!” I took the book. “Huh, she
doesn’t exactly live up to her namesake, now, does she?” It was a cold autumn
day and I pulled my jacket closer against the cold. The smell of soggy, molding
leaves overwhelming and surprisingly pleasant. We’d always picked the longest
route home, enjoying that time alone, as far away from the world we could
possibly get. “I’m skipping tomorrow, wanna join?” I gave
the book back to him. “I like school,” he said. “I think learning is
fun.” “I know you
do,” I replied. “And that’s why I have serious doubts about whether we’re really
brothers or not. So, do you want to come or not?” “No thanks,”
he said. We turned the corner to see the house; it was old when we’d moved in
and I’ll admit that it always had been, and always will be, an alarming sight.
The outside was enough to send chills down anyone’s spine and give them that
paranormal sense of danger. The floors creaked as you walked on them and it
seemed to be perfectly equipped for the creepy-crawlies that found solace in
the walls. Just looking at it now made me want to run as fast as I could to get
away, and I lived there. “Do you think we’re going to have to move
again?” Zayn asked after we both stared at the misshapen building for a moment. “Probably, we
always do,” I said. “But as soon as we’re old enough, we’ll leave.” “She’s not
going to let us leave!” Zayn said. “Do you really
think Farah’s going to care?” I asked as I opened the door. “No, probably
not,” he replied after thinking about it and following me inside. I was right, she hadn’t cared, and she probably
still didn’t. In fact, she was probably inside right now counting up a wad of
cash with a cigarette in her mouth and a bottle of any alcoholic substance
within reach and praising the lord that she didn’t have to share. When I’d told her that Zayn and I were leaving I was
almost certain she would jump and dance with delight. It would mean fewer
mouths to feed and talk back to her; it would mean she wouldn’t have to share
anything she had. It didn’t matter if I’d told her we were going or not, it’s
not like she would have called the cops to report her missing children, that
would be against her unspoken code and even if she had called them, Zayn and I
would be long gone before there was anything the authorities could do about it.
Not only had Farah taught us well but it was in our genes. Our genetic makeup
allowed us to perfect the art of living under the radar and hiding from the
law. Those were some good times, too, no school, no
worries, and no Farah spitting out hateful words about how useless we were and
how we’d ruined her life. It was just Zayn and I on the open road doing what we
wanted, when we wanted. For once, everything seemed bright. Nothing within the house stirred and I was beginning
to wonder whether or not anyone was really in there. Maybe she had left, moved
on to swindle another city or maybe she’d died while we were away. Either way,
I didn’t exactly want to go up to the door to find out. “Hey, kid,” I said, startling the two boys that were
walking by on their way home from school. The same exact path Zayn and I took
every day. I watched as the older boy suspiciously walked over. “Does someone
still live in that scary looking old house there?” “Yeah, she calls herself Madame de Triana,” he said
and I could all but see him shudder. “She doesn’t leave the house much, though;
I’ve only ever seen her once or twice.” “Thank you,” I said and watched as he walked away
with his younger brother. They looked back at me one last time before going
into their home. Trust, it was a word with little meaning nowadays. We’d made it
to Georgia, a few hundred miles away from that abomination of a house. It was a
bright summer’s day in the south and the heat was like a slap in the face once
we left the safety of the air conditioned car. The ground was dry and dusty
from the recent heat wave and lack of precipitation but, despite all that, I
enjoyed the southern ambiance. Throughout our
many moves we’d become accustomed to the intense heat, Farah enjoyed the warmth
so we always lingered in the southern states. I would say it was because it was
some kind of reptilian effect, her cold blooded nature made her crave the
warmth. Zayn told me that was improbable and I was being unnecessarily sadistic
to the woman who’d given me birth. He always used words and phrases that had
little to no meaning to me but who was I to tell him it was useless babble? We’d stopped at a motel and checked in before
going to check out the city. We’d only been to Georgia once before, but we
mostly only saw the inside of various trailers our mother decided to squat in
and we were both up for a little sightseeing, which was the whole point of our
trip, to live a little. The first
thing Zayn did was drag me into a book store, I retaliated by nearly getting us
both kicked out but not fast enough to prevent him from getting another book.
As we walked away with the shopkeeper waving his fists at us, I took the book
out of Zayn’s hands and leafed through the crisp, new pages and I wrinkled my
nose in disgust at that new book smell. “We don’t have
enough room for all your books,” I said. “Especially the educational ones.” “For lack of
space or your lack of caring?” Zayn took the book back. “Both,” I
said. “It’s a
philosophy book,” he said as if that changed anything and started to read it. “Amazing,” I
replied with no enthusiasm. “I’ll read it the next time I’m plagued with
insomnia.” “You’re a true
scholar, Corin,” he said with the same sarcasm. He closed the book and looked
at me; it was almost as if I were looking into a mirror. “Ever think about
going back?” “To school?
Never!” “No,” Zayn
sighed. “I already knew the answer to that!” “Home?” I
asked as we turned into the park and he nodded. “I’m never going back there.” “Maybe she
misses us or needs us,” Zayn replied. “I mean, she is our mother.” “Biologically,”
I said. “But that’s where I draw the line.” “You’re so
cynical,” he rolled his deep brown eyes. “I take pride
in that,” I said. “That’s what’s
sad,” he replied. “Not my
fault,” I defended. “It’s how I was raised, if you’re into that whole Nature
vs. Nurture thing.” “I think I
want to visit her,” he said. “Next time we’re up that way.” “She’s not going
to want to see you,” I said. “She didn’t care, remember? She was happy we left,
probably wondering why we hadn’t done it sooner.” “People
change,” he looked down at the grass. “Not Farah,” I
said. “Fine, if you want to go see her then you can do it alone because I want
no part in it.” “Alright,” he
said. We sat at a
bench in the center of the large park where we could see everything in the
park, the smell of cut grass was fresh even though a lawnmower couldn’t be
heard. I leaned back to let the sunlight warm my face as Zayn read his newly
purchased book. I was half asleep, the sun providing a comfort that I hadn’t
felt in a while. “Hey,” I
opened a lazy eyelid and watched as Zayn stood up. “I’ll be right back.” “Whatever,” I
muttered irritably. He dropped the heavy book onto my chest before walking
away. “You jerk!” He laughed as
he walked away and once again I started to doze. It was quiet, peaceful and
pleasant. We were far enough away that the sounds of cars weren’t bothersome
and because it was a weekday not many people were passing by. Life was good. A disturbing
hush took over the park, much quieter than before. The silence became eerie and
sinister and I wondered what Zayn was doing. I felt the book heavy on my chest
which meant that he hadn’t come back yet. I listened for another minute or two
but didn’t hear anything save the sound of distant, almost inaudible voices. I sighed and
opened an eye to peek at my watch, it had been twenty minutes. I sat up and
looked around the park, not even a critter was in sight, not a single sign of
life. So where was my brother? Annoyed, I
stood and called out to Zayn. Silence was my only reply. I felt as
though something was terribly wrong, call it intuition or paranoia, I didn’t
really care. I started a light jog down the street, continuing to call Zayn.
Nothing. My jog soon turned into a frantic run that was much faster and lasted
much longer than I physically should have been able to do. I was forced to stop
and take long deep breaths, my lungs and legs aching from the exertion. Then I heard
the loud blast of a firing gun. That was when everything went wrong, talk about life
going down the drain. Mine was wadded up into a hideous, disfigured ball,
thrown into the mud and driven all over before finally being sent away. I still don’t know what exactly had happened to
Zayn, I ran as fast as I could towards where the shot was fired but the
offender was long gone by then and so was Zayn. What was once the greatest
thing to happen to us, our independence and freedom, became a nightmare that
would forever haunt me. His eyes were empty, listless, clouded over. I
remembered all the wisdom I’d once seen in those brown eyes fade away in front
of my very own which then welled up with tears. His olive skin was now ashen
and his jaw slack. I remembered hysterically shaking him and calling his name,
anything to wake him up but the pool of red told me that he wasn’t coming back.
As if that was his life getting soaked up by the summer grass. No matter how
many times I cleaned them, I still saw that red, even to this day, forever dyed crimson in my psyche. Everything after was a blur to me, fear and panic
drowned out my brain’s ability to process anything that was happening. I didn’t
even know how the paramedics knew someone had been shot. I only saw lights and colors,
nebulous figures, faces that were too blurry for me to really acknowledge. At
first I didn’t want to let go, almost as if he would wither away and cease to
exist if I did. Even on the way to the hospital I knew it was pointless, he was
already gone and I couldn’t do a thing about it. I didn’t like the hospital, not that I’d ever been
in one before, I’m pretty sure my mother had never even stepped foot in one
before. I didn’t like the smell of disinfectant desperately trying to
masquerade the overwhelmingly sad scent of death but did so in vain. I also
wasn’t too keen on the idea of strangers in white jackets pretending to be all
high and mighty and better than everyone else just because they could afford to
get a PhD being Zayn’s only chance. They had me sitting in the waiting room for hours,
long enough that I could almost count all the little dots in the ceiling tiles.
Long enough to bring me to the brink of madness that I was actually beginning
to wonder how the receptionist could still possibly be snapping that same piece
of bubblegum and heavily considering going up to ask her. I left the
hospital alone that night, the surgeon had come out and delivered the news that
there was nothing he could do but I didn’t believe him. He saw my brother as a
paycheck, nothing more. What he didn’t take into account was he’d probably
never see a dime, not from me anyway. He didn’t care about my brother so I
didn’t care if he couldn’t pay the mortgage on his beach-front house. My cynicism and doubt towards humanity swelled so
much that I couldn’t even look at the people around me without feeling disgust and
hatred towards them. I walked down the street, my Chevy still in the motel
parking space we’d left it in that morning, glaring at those that walked by.
Any one of them could be the monster that shot my innocent brother who no doubt
was just trying to help a soul in need. He was predictable in that way. Too tired to walk the whole way to the motel I
wouldn’t be sleeping in I waited for the bus with Zayn’s book in hand, a blotch
of red stained the leather cover which meant that it would have to go. I’d
almost forgotten that I had been holding it, I didn’t even remember picking it
up again after dropping it to help him. I smiled thinking about what Zayn may
have tried to teach me as he read the contents of the pages. “There has to be something worthy enough to get through that thick
skull of yours! Something that interests you? Anything?” That was what he’d
said to me the last time he’d tried to teach me some bit of information. Now I
wished I’d listened to every single lecture. While waiting for the bus, I decided to flip through
a few pages. At first it was just to have something to do, something to keep my
mind off what had just happened. When I started reading the words, dimly
illuminated by the streetlights, I became intrigued. “When kindness has left people, even for a few moments, we become afraid
of them as if their reason had left them. When it has left a place where we
have always found it, it is like shipwreck; we drop from security into
something malevolent and bottomless.” The quote was from someone named
Willa Cather and I had to read it a few times more. It made me think about
things I never would have thought of before. Could there actually still be
kindness out there? Or was it truly extinct from humanity? I spent two years
trying to figure it out and the once open road soon became claustrophobic and
depressing but I was on a mission. I would drive throughout most of the day and
usually well into the night; sometimes I would even sleep parked on the side of
the road with my window cracked open a hair. If I did stay at a motel or inn, I
couldn’t find any comfort in sleeping. I’d wake up in a cold sweat and the
darkness would cause fear. I wanted revenge, as
would anyone in my situation but I knew that Zayn wouldn’t have wanted that and
I couldn’t stoop to their level. I didn’t want to be like those that took
pleasure in other’s pain; I didn’t want the hatred to take over as it had so
many times before. After all that
driving, searching, wondering, only to come back here to the one place I said I
would never return to. It didn’t seem to make any sense to me and now I was
alone to do it. I couldn’t help but smile at the irony. I pulled into the gas station of a small town. I didn’t have
a map because I didn’t really have a destination but now I was curious. I had
been driving several days without having any idea where I was going. The
attendant came out to ask if I needed any help and I declined. “Sir,” I said before he walked away. “What state is this?” “Colorado,” the man said. “Seems like a pretty small town,” I said. “It is,” he replied and spat. “But I wouldn’t want it any
other way.” “Are there any places to stay the night?” I asked as I
pulled out some money to pay him. “Not really,” he said as he took the money. “Not enough
people travel through here that would require an inn but you can stay with me
an’ the wife.” “No, I couldn’t-“ I started to say. “Nah, I insist!” The old gentleman said. “We gots plenty o’
room an’ we have travelers jus’ like you staying there all the time. It’s
cheaper than any hotel in the next few towns.” “Okay,” I said, a little taken aback. How could he trust a
complete stranger to stay at his house? A no-good, rotten hooligan wearing a
withered leather jacket, ripped jeans and driving a black muscle car older than
he is cross-country without paying attention or caring where it took him, let’s
let him sleep in our guest room and pray he doesn’t slit our throats!
Remarkable. “Thank you.” “No problem,” he said and gave me directions to his home. A woman just as benevolent and ancient as her husband
answered the door and I was whisked away and cared for. If I hadn’t been so
tired and confused I probably would’ve thought I was poor Hansel about to be
devoured by an evil witch. I was getting ready to leave early that next morning; I
never really stayed long in any place, much like my mother. The old man helped
me check the engine to make sure it was still fit to drive while his generous
wife made me lunch to go. “You fix this car up all by yourself?” Mr. Laine asked as I
closed the hood. “Over the years,” I said. “My brother helped me a lot.
Actually, he stood in my way reading from a book about cars rather than
worked on the car but you get my
drift.” I looked up to the sound of hammering and watched as a frame
of a house was in the process of being made. There was a large crowd of people
working and helping out and I thought it was a pretty big crew for such a small
neighborhood. “Thanks for letting me stay here,” I said and offered
payment. “Nah, keep the money,” the old man said. “It’s on the
house.” “Thank you,” I said. “You’re a kind man, Mr. Laine, I wish
more people were like you.” “So don’t I,” he said. I was quiet for a moment, thinking
about Zayn, for a minute I forgot where I was and it wasn’t until the old man
touched my shoulder that I was brought back to reality. “You alright, Corin?” “Yeah,” I tried a smile. “Just some memories coming back to
haunt me.” “Uh huh,” he said and watched me go back inside. I felt the
need to wash my hands, a common occurrence whenever I thought back to that day.
No matter how many times I washed them it didn’t change. A few minutes later, I
went back outside where Mr. and Mrs. Laine stood by my car to say their
goodbyes. “Mr. Laine,” I said, hiding my hands in my pocket, sore from
the scrubbing and scathing water. “Why does it seem the whole neighborhood is
working on that house?” “That’s ‘cause they are,” he said. “That poor family lost their house to a fire a few months
back. Some city folks thought it would be funny to commit a felony.” Mrs. Laine
said. “They even lost their little girl.” “So the whole town’s pitching in to help rebuild the house,
bigger n’ better,” Mr. Laine continued. “We’re about to go over an’ help
too.” “Need an extra pair of hands?” I asked and rolled up my
sleeves. “The more the merrier,” he smiled. We worked on until it was dark and my impenetrable pride was
returned. I had blisters on my hands but that didn’t seem to matter, at least
they weren’t stained scarlet with blood that only my conscience was aware of. I remembered when I first saw the family, victims to the
treacherous deed. Mrs. Laine said they’d lost a little girl, a picture of her
posted to keep the workers motivated, but they had another. She looked the same
as her sister, twins no doubt. She sat on the swing set, watching as the house
was built. It didn’t matter how they rebuilt it, ‘home’ would have a whole
different meaning to her. “Y’know,” I looked up to Mr. Laine, taking a break with me.
“Usually I don’t pry into my guest’s business but they never stop to help us
out neither.” “Well,” I looked over to the little girl. “I know what it’s
like to lose your best friend.” “I see, your brother then?” I didn’t reply but he took the
hint. I watched as he tried to wipe plaster off his hands. “Needed to get
away?” “If I could,” I smiled. “I would, but I can’t seem to get
far enough away.” “No parents?” He asked. “Define ‘parents’” I said and he laughed. “Never knew my
father, wish I never knew my mother.” “Boy, your mama needs much consoling after losing a child
whether she was a good ‘un or not.” He said. “She didn’t care about us,” I said. “She was happy to see us
go, there were times that I thought she’d moved on without us anyway.” “If you were gone, then how do you know?” he asked. “All I’m
saying is, you don’t know what you got until you ain’t got it no more. I’m sure
she misses you, especially after your loss.” “She doesn’t know,” I said, looking down at my stained
hands. “Corin,” he said. “Sometimes with enough kindness and
compassion, you can drown out any bad and wickedness. Even in people.” I watched him go back to work, a little dumbfounded. Maybe
Mr. Laine was right, that may have been the answer I had been looking for all
this time. I smiled to myself and also got back to building the house. I stayed that whole week until the house was finished and
though it would make any designer cringe with horror, we thought it was a
beautiful sight. It was just the right size for the family and looked as though
it had always been a part of the neighborhood. The windowpanes were painted a simple black while the rest
of the house was painted a simple white, nothing fancy just simple and easy for
the small budget and while it could never replace the house and life they’d had
before it would do just fine. I even saw the little girl smile. Ever since then, a
white house was never the same; they all just appeared to be lies to me. They
couldn’t even be compared to the house built out of compassion, hopes and
dreams while the houses in this neighborhood was built for the sole purpose of
industry and to rob others of a stress-free life. I still wrote to the
Laine’s frequently and I was sure there would be a stack of letters waiting for
me in that old house from my new friends. I was finally beginning to understand
that kindness and happiness were all still out there. You just had to know how
to find it. So then, I went to find it for myself. That’s why I was here
in my old neighborhood, staring at the black-spot with its rotting wood,
falling shingles, and broken windows. The cobwebs that looked to be decorations
from the untrained eye but I knew they were all too real. It looked as though
it could fall apart if the big bad wolf even looked at it let alone huff and
puff. My fingers anxiously
tapped the hood of my car as I tried to find another way to stall the
inevitable. I had to go knock on the door; Zayn would have wanted that and she
didn’t even know that he was gone. I let out a frustrated groan and walked over
to the gate, as if time wasn’t any obstacle. The rusted, iron gate squeaked obnoxiously
when I pushed it open and I flinched. When I looked up at the house nothing had
changed. I stood in front of
the door, blackened with age and decay. I turned to see if anyone was watching
but the streets were empty, soulless just as the park had been. It was the
moment of truth, knock or no? I lifted my hand, starting to appear that delusional
red again. The knock was
purposefully quiet and for a second there was no indication that it had been
heard. I realized that my heart was pounding hard in my chest and that I was
holding my breath. When the door still failed to be answered I exhaled and
started to walk back to my car. Salvation. Maybe I should come back another
time. “Corin?” I stopped in
my tracks when I heard the silken voice that for a moment I didn’t recognize.
The words were crisp rather than slurred, soft rather than coarse, motherly
rather than demonic. I turned to see a woman in a black robe just as silky as
her voice, her hair, as raven black as her sons’, disheveled and her eyes
showed many sleepless nights but despite all that, she looked better than any
of my memories could depict and for a minute I didn’t even recognize her as my
mother. “Far…mom,” I
corrected myself and walked back to her. Either she’d shrunk or I’d grown
another inch or two because now I towered over her. “How’s it going?” I barely finished the
sentence when she hugged me tightly and for a moment I was speechless and
confused. I couldn’t remember any form of affection from her, only hatred, even
when I was young. For a minute, I didn’t know what to do. “Corin,” she smiled
and looked up at me and then over to my empty car. “I’ve been trying to find
you two! Where’s your brother?” I was quiet. She’d
actually been trying to find us and I was hiding from her, keeping Zayn’s death
a secret. “Sorry, mom,” I said
and she hugged me again, crying. After another minute or two she pulled away
but didn’t let go of my hands. This was not the same woman Zayn and I had left
behind all those years ago. Zayn had been right, she’d changed. “Do you… want to come
in?” I looked back at my
car, there was no turning back now but wasn’t that the point? I smiled to her
and followed her into the old, black-spot of a house. I’d been wrong, the
outside of the house was a lie, a complete opposite to the inside but I was
okay with that, I liked the lie. I even offered to fix that for her and she
gladly accepted. The stack of letters I thought would be the first thing I went
to was actually the last since it was the first time I actually enjoyed my
mother’s company. I could almost hear the sneers of “I told you so” from Zayn. It was true, you
didn’t know what you had until it was gone and I didn’t know what to think when
the person who thought for me was no longer there. I had to learn for myself
what Zayn had known all along. I’d learned that sometimes you had to look past
the evil and treacherous and take that step forward and see the good because a
simple act of kindness could go a long, long way. © 2010 Rocki-sanAuthor's Note
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Added on January 15, 2010Last Updated on January 16, 2010 Tags: Brothers, kindness, fiction, short story AuthorRocki-sanAboutHey, I'm Rocki! I live on a 14-mile long island where there isn't really anything to do so I write. I'm an Anthropology major and willing to read your stories or books if requested as long as you give.. more..Writing
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