Chapter 18

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Kurai’s POV

 

            Alex pulls away from the hug and suddenly kisses me on the lips. My eyes go wide and I struggle trying to get away from him. No! I will not let him act on my feelings for him. I want to die, I don’t want to live no matter what Alex says or do. There’s no f*****g way my life can get better; I will always be broken.

 

            I finally get my hands between his and my chest and I push him off the bed. I grab the blanket to wrap around me and run out of the room. I don’t care where I’m going I just want to get away from Alex and out of here.

 

Alex’s POV

 

            He shoves me off of the bed and I just stare at him as he runs out of the room. My eyes start to water from his rejection but I wipe them away. He’s just confused; he isn’t really rejecting me. Why does he want to die so badly though? Even I didn’t want to die this badly. Angel talked me out of it pretty easily. I guess I did want to kill myself again after what happened between us but I blocked out the negative feelings and just thought positively. Kurai, however, is worse than I was. Who knows how many times he attempted suicide.

 

            Finally I realize that Angel is still out there so I jump up and chase after Kurai. If Angel finds him Kurai will just welcome his death. He would beg for it. Which way did he go though? I just run in a random direction and luckily I find him balled up in the corner scratching at his wrist making himself bleed more.

 

            “Kurai!?” I run to him and hold his wrist apart. “Stop trying to kill yourself!”

 

            “But I want to f*****g die!!” He yells at me.

 

            “Tell me, what will make you not want to die?” I ask.

 

            “I-I honestly don’t know.” Tears start falling from his eyes. “I’m just tired of life, tired of the pain and depression, I want it all to end.”

 

            “Then let me in Kurai.” I say to him calmly. “Let me show you what love is, show you how much I love you. I want to save you from this dark hole you’re in and I’m serious about that.”

 

            “Why? I’m just a broken, good-for-nothing-“

 

            “No you aren’t.” I interrupt. “You are amazing. You are beautiful and I think you would be even more beautiful if you would smile.” I kiss him lightly on the lips. I drop his wrist and he just stares at me wondering what to do. I smile at him. “Want to get out of here? I’ll call the cops on Angel, hopefully he’s still knocked out.” I pick him up bridal style and luckily Kurai doesn’t resist. I don’t know if it’s because he’s tired or if it’s because he’s going to finally let me try to heal him.

 

            He snuggles into my chest and I carry him out of the place after making sure the blanket is wrapped around him.