Chapter 14

Kurai's POV

"Try to be more careful next time ok?" The doctor says as he fixes the stitches on my wrist.

"Ok doctor." I reply quietly. After we woke up this morning, Alex rushed me to the hospital after he saw my bloody wrist. I apparently broke some stitches while climbing the tree so they needed to be fixed.

After we got that fixed we walked out for hopefully the last time till we need to get them taken out.

"How are you Kurai?" Alex suddenly asks on our way to his car.

I just stared at the ground and stopped walking. Am I ok? "Let's just go." I say while quickly walking to the car.

Alex runs up behind me and grabs my shoulder turning me around. "No Kurai. If you were ok then you wouldn't have ignored my question."

"I don't want to talk about it."

"What's wrong?"

"What if you trying to love me isn't enough? Yes I'm feeling something for you but I still get thoughts about cutting and suicide. I mean I had a freaking murder dream last night and the picture I drew. I just- ugh. You know what? I'm just going to go back to being alone. If I kill myself, then whatever. I just keep thinking that you'll give up and abandon me one day so why not now? I'll just go back to being along, not doing my homework, and starving myself. Bye!" I yelled at him and I just ran after my little outburst.

After about 10 minutes of running I finally stop. I look around and notice that I'm at some empty street.

Panting I just fall down to the ground. I'm in the middle of the street but I don't care. I don't want to live anymore anyways.

I mean Alex didn't chase after me so that means he doesn't care right?

I lay on my back and just stare up at the sun.

I lift my hand up and look at the bandage on my wrist. What will happen of I jut tear out the stitches and let myself bleed out in the middle of the street? Will I finally die?

After thinking about it for a few minutes I finally rip off the bandages and look at the ugly stitches. I take my razor and cut them off. I violently take off the strings and I cry at the stabbing pain in my now bleeding wrist.

I make a couple more deep cuts below the already bleeding ones then I just lay down my arms next to me.

As I feel the life bleed out of me I hear a car coming. Is this it? Will this car run me over and finally end my life? But before the car gets here I pass out from the blood loss.