Chapter 6A Chapter by Kuroko ChigokoroLast period of the day and I'm constantly scratching my wrist. I've been dying to cut all day, but Alex took my knife away. I begged him at lunch to give it back but he wouldn't. I haven't eaten yet today also. I'm just not hungry. Bleeding a bit sometimes help with that though. I look at the clock in anticipation for the day to end. As soon as the bell rings I run out of the classroom and out of the school. I just need to avoid Alex. I get home luckily without seeing him, but when I checked my phone I see multiple text and missed calls from him. When I get home I go straight to my room and I lock the door ignoring the calls from my mom. I go into my bathroom and I pull out my razor. I didn't want to pull it apart but I guess in going to have to. After a couple of minutes of fumbling with it I finally get it apart. But not without cutting my fingers a couple times in the process. I run the water in the bathtub freezing cold while I get my clothes off. After stripping I slip into the water gasping in the process. Using freezing cold water helps me actually feel something, another way how I deal with things. I grab the blade and I slowly run the blade along my wrist; blood slips out as I do this, but not too much that I will kill myself. I'm just not ready to take that final step. It takes a lot of courage and strength to do that. But I'm not sure which requires more, living or dying? I cut my wrist again and I gasp at the pleasure going through my body. Maybe I am a masochist. Only a masochist would get pleasure from pain. I look down and I notice I slightly hard. Maybe I should pleasure myself, maybe it'll help. I grab my c**k and I slowly stroke myself. My strokes slowly get faster and now I'm panting and moaning from the pleasure. I run my fingers along my chest and n*****s while still stroking myself with my other hand. By now I have blood all over my chest from my cuts. I realize it isn't enough to bring me I climax. I decide to squeeze my c**k as hard as I can while still quickly stroking it. But it still wasn't enough. I then take the blade in my other hand and I run it along my chest and stomach, cutting in a few places. I moan a bit when some blood slips from the cuts. I then decide to run the blade along my legs, arms, back, shoulders, neck, and even my c**k. And eventually I have blood all over my body and the water isn't clear anymore. I pant faster and moan some more as I stroke myself a few more times before I cum. I let my arms fall to my sides and I breathe deeply to try to get myself down from my high. Yep, I am officially a masochist. But I can't believe it helped. I actually felt alive. Maybe I should w***e myself out or something? No that wouldn't be a good idea. I've heard of people using sex as a way to deal with life. Maybe I can get Alex to help. He wants to help change me right? Maybe this could work. © 2012 Kuroko Chigokoro |
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1 Review Added on October 30, 2012 Last Updated on October 30, 2012 AuthorKuroko ChigokoroPeoria, AZAboutHello! I'm 19 and currently attending a state university studying Graphic Design! Though I love to do Illustration type art. :) I love to draw and I also love to write. I love yaoi which is what inspi.. more..Writing
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