Loosing it to insanity

I wrote this after going through alot of stuff caused me to start having anxiety attacks break downs and just all around bad times. Writing this really helped me put a close on that part of my life.

I pretend its not the end of me

But it feels like loosing it to insanity

You broke me baby, is that okay?

I try so hard not to care, to act as if your not there

I don’t love you anymore

Then why does it still hurt?

To know you choose her

Why did I trust and believe?

I swore I’d never let love live inside of this body

And now the memories of it are ruining me

I don’t want you! I wanna be free!!

My heart is back but my trust is gone

Left behind are the keys to the madness

No longer able to control myself, when does it stop?

How much more must I endure?

I’m exhausted with its constant rebuild

Overwhelming me, even in sleep

I awake with the will to breath

but unwelcome resistance stops me

Traps the air in my chest

And silencing my screams

The shaking awakes me from my sleep

No longer can I escape to dreams

My past awakens me

Reviews

[Cool Handless Luke]

Very nicely crafted and obviously flows from the heart. The opening like is awesome and the rest follows suit. Perfect ending as well. Nice job.

[Adelie Tynan.]

I enjoyed this reading this alot.
My favorite line was "Left behind are the keys to the madness."
Power words and yet I feel like you didn't try to make them sound all fancy and overdone. Just simple, realistic yet relateable words and that was cool.
Nice job!

[Stacey]

This is a wonderful revelation in words. It's easy to put it on paper, but can be very difficult to share. And as you said...once this is done it feels like a boulder has been lifted from your chest and you can breath again. Penning emotion stuck in your mind is very liberating. You've written this piece with much emotion and admire that in a writer. Congratulations on a wonderful verse!

On a technical note...I think if you read this over a few times for meter to improve the flow it would enhance the emotion of your words. You can tell me to shut up...LOL! I only offer this because I see great talent in your work!

Vivid emotion.
Heartbreak.
Excellent visual; I can see it all.
I love this.