Gazing at a blue sky
With flames scattered across it
I wonder why I’m here
I wonder why you’re there
The flames erupt and engulf me
Into an abyss of despair
I look at the blood-red sunset
Wishing for the flower-yellow sunrise
My screams are never heard
The twilight always drowns them
I search for an answer
A calling
To ease my everlasting pain
Something to always satisfy my growing thirst
My aching hunger
My ignorance of others
And pity toward myself
I stare at my hands
The only thing I can see in my blind state
I dare not look up
For I fear the Twilight Sky
I fear what others feel joy toward
And in the end I disgust myself
Never facing a disgusting fear
Never learning how to face it all
Never knowing if I should fear it or not
Against my will I look down
Down toward a new kind of flame
My heart almost bursts
The flame flickers and waves to me
It is small, but it warms my cold, aching body
I feel it, this thing called ‘Love’
It seemed to whisper to me
Repeatedly saying that I was okay
That I was alive
That I was ready for a new sunrise
I stare at it as I slowly opened my ball of fear
I looked up at the opening sky
It wasn’t fearful or painful
It was happiness and joy with the bitterness of sadness
My heart finally started beating again
As I realized my place in life
I realized that my place was ‘Love’ not ‘Hate’ or ‘Fear’
I looked at my surrounding for the first time
And accepted my new life