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...my words i want to reach him...

Today I found words written by the one I hold closest,

Words that set me off crying for an amount of time I cannot remember,

Crying because I feel him slipping out of my grasp,

I cried so much that I left myself weak and frail,

Yet still I wanted to fight for him,

I fought to stay alive,

I fought to stay awake,

I stood up off my bed,

And did everything I can to keep myself alive for him,

Because I don't want to lose him,

And I don't want to die if he still has the will to be with me,

I write this randomness for him to see,

To see that despite the hurt and pain I still fight as hard as I can to stay with him and only him,

For he is the only person I have ever strived this hard to keep in my life,

Not even my most beloved friend, my cat, comes that close,

If he should leave me I still won't give up,

I will find him and do everything in the world to get him back,

It reminds me of words spoken at the ending of my favorite movie,

"Even if I lose you now, I'm sure we'll find each other again...",

But I don't want it to come to that,

I don't want to lose him for any reason in the world,

I'll give up everything I have though it is barely much,

As long as he doesn't leave me to cry out my life in endless pain and misery,

For without him the only light in my life would be extinguished,

There would be no reason for me to ever smile,

Not at a joke, Not at a stpid stunt, Not even at my ever hyper loving cats,

He is the reason I smile, He is the reason I strive,

He is the reason I have learned to love in the right way,

And not to over-cling to the thought of this or that,

Every word I speak,

Every word I think,

Everything I do,

It all makes me think of him,

He is never away from me despite being miles away in reality,

For I hold him close in my heart,

For him to leave my heart would to be for him to take away my heart with him,

Because nobody else in this world will be allowed near it,

Again just like something I've heard, From a song this time,

"I'd build a wall around my heart, That would only break apart for you.",

But again I'll say it,

I don't want it to come to that,

This is the OverFlow of the words running through my mind while he is away on military stuff for the day,

All I can say is I want him to see it,

And to consider before he acts for any reason,

That he is my life, He is my world, He is my heart, He is my soul, He is my everything,

And for that...I'd give up even my life to save it, to keep it, to protect it so it can live,

For without him, The world is but a dark room...With only a closed door,

With him on the other side holding the golden key that can either lock it forever,

Or open it for all eternity...

 

The only words I can say after all this is but three, simple, as true as my existance, words...

 

I,

Love,

You