It's a..

Craved by a religion

Molded by modesty

Conditioned to think of thyself as a virtuous vessel

For self control, for patience, for hope

But in an instance, for a moment of pleasure,

Brings 9 months for constant discomfort, 

where my life is not controlled by my constant routine 

but by the life invested in by another

For life is invested, fixed and controlled

It is risk tolerance low, and time monitored by the second

To groom, nurture,grow, 

Setting aside all personal whims, and frivolous dreams 

But there is an horizon

This is a chance to add you mark,

Your legacy sent into the world

Given to you to shape as you deem fit

Author's Note

Nervous about something... can you tell?