Dinner with a Book-Loving Mad Scientist: A Tale of Reunion and
Acceptance
By Joseph Kanauss
The table was set with pasta and water glasses
and before it were my guests, all of them sitting quietly and uncomfortably. I
looked on in pride and happy wonder. Aside from the occasional clinking of
glasses on the table or silverware on the plates, all was silent. Not a bad
start. At least they didn’t come into existence inside-out. That was a plus.
I had been spending all my
adult life for this moment and, now that it was here, I could hardly believe it
was real. It had taken millions of hard earned dollars and countless hours to
bring my guests into my dining room and it was well worth it.
Here, on my left, sat Ramon
Reynolds, a man, in his own dimension, who was a famous painter. To his left
sat Branwell Zamborska, a professor, like his father before him, with a scar of
trouble in his past. At the end of the left side of the table sat Cassie Logan,
a beautiful woman who still worked on the farm she was raised on. Each of these
silent adults, though drawn from extremely different worlds, all shared one
thing in common: bitter animosity. And they stared at the ones who wrought said
animosity in the face, right across the table.
Here, opposite Ramon, was his
brother, Leon Reynolds, whom he last spoke to twenty years ago, when he was
twelve years old. A bond had been broken between them when Leon had struck deep
with a comment on a very young Ramon’s heart and, ever since, they had lost each
other. When Leon had left home for college, Ramon had written him out of his
life.
Across from Branwell sat a
woman, smoking away at her ever-present cigarette, whom was once the object of his
young boy lust, but, after a dark incident, became the object of a very adult
loathing. Vivian Shawcourt was her name, and ever since dropping Nikki
Zamborska, had found a pleasure in causing pain to others.
Sitting opposite of Cassie,
sat the woman whom had caused her an embarrassing and unforgettable moment in
her life as a young girl: Lillian Jean Simms. She was an evil white girl who
hated people of dark skin then and she was an evil white woman who hated
everyone now. She glared menacingly across the table, and her personal flask
she continually drank from, at Cassie.
To break the silence, I stood
and cleared my throat.
“How did everybody like the
meal?” I asked in my most pleasant voice, as if I didn’t know I had brought
blood enemies together for the first time in years, in a place that was
unfamiliar to any of them.
A mixture of murmured
appraisal for the pasta, as well as a “I need more booze” from Lillian Jean,
was my reply and I continued on to the whole point of the evening. The whole
point, in fact, for the last thirty-seven years of my life.
“Now, I know that this might
seem odd,” I said. “But better to be blunt than to beat around the bush, I say.
I brought you all here for one reason and one reason only: acceptance.”
“Whatchoo mean, ‘acceptance’?”
Lillian Jean asked drunkenly.
“My dear,” I smiled
graciously. “I mean that you six are on a bad path of self-destruction.”Secretly,
however, I was only trying to reach out to the three to my left. For all I
cared, the three on my right could get sucked into the space between spaces.
“Pardon me,” Ramon, in his
stylized voice that only came from an artist whose paintings sold for six
figures each, said. “But what exactly do you mean?”
“I mean,” I replied. “That
you, Ramon Reynolds, are collapsing emotionally because of your lack of
confidence in your work. I mean that you, Branwell, are still afraid to speak
up for fear of not being believed. I mean that you, Cassie, are still apprehensive
when it comes to men and women with white skin and that it is keeping you from
experiencing life to the fullest. I mean that the three of you are being
haunted by them,” I pointed to Lillian, Leon, and Vivian. “And that I aim for
you to see things how they are.”
“This is bullshit.” Lillian
belched.
“I agree with the drunk broad,”
Leon Reynolds nodded.
“Yeah, can we get out of here
anytime soon?” Vivian Shawcourt blew smoke from her mouth like a cartoon speech
bubble.
“Ramon,” I continued, ignoring
the antagonists on my right. “What do you think of your brother?”
“He’s fine, I suppose.” Ramon
said, taking a long gulp of water. “Can be a bit arrogant, though.”
“Now, Ramon,” I replied. “Please
be honest.”
“I am being honest!” The painter said, but his voice wavered slightly. “Now can
we please get out of here so I can get back to my latest installation?”
“Leon,” I said, turning to the
man in a dark jacket with a scraggly beard. “What do you think of Ramon’s work?”
“Oh, come on! Why are you
asking him?” Ramon burst out.
I held my finger out for silence and urged Leon on. “Come on, friend, tell me
what you think.”
“It’s pompous.” Leon shrugged.
“Absolute nonsense.”
“Ah, what do you know, you small-minded brute?” Ramon growled. “My work is
abstract! Look at you sitting there! You’re a dirty mess and you stink like
urine. Where did you find this guy?” he asked me.
With a small smile that only
Ramon could see I said, “He was behind a fast food joint, scrounging through a
dumpster for some expired fries.”
“Ugh!” Ramon exclaimed in
disgust. “You’re a homeless, gross ape! I cannot believe that I have held you "
you!- as a bar of excellence in my heart for so long!” The painter looked at me
with a cheerful smile. “You were right. I don’t know how, but you were right! I
was always thinking about how my work never was at Leon’s standards. But now,
after seeing what he is, I believe I will be even better than before!”
This seemed to bring the other
two from the denial I could see inside them by their faces. Branwell, the
professor, shook his head.
“You b***h.” He muttered to
Vivian, who had begun on a new cigarette. “Look at you.”
“What about me, Branny?”
Vivian said in sultry voice.
“Don’t do that. That hasn’t
worked on me since what you did to Nikki. You’re all dolled up tonight. Who’d
you assault this time, Vivian? Another baby?”
“What if it is?” The woman,
mid-right, growled. “I’ll get off once again.”
“Like hell you will,” Branwell
shook his head again. “You’re washed up. You know what? This guy was right. I’ve
been afraid to speak up for years. And you know why? Because I thought, as
silly as it sounds, that you’d show up to beat me down like you did when I was
a young boy. Now, looking at you, I see you can’t do it. Your charm is all
gone. Dried up with your wrinkled flesh! You,” he said punching a finger
straight toward the prematurely aging English woman. “are powerless.”
Like Ramon Reynolds before
him, Branwell Zamborska looked me in the eye with a look of pure gratefulness. “Thank
you, sir, for showing me that the face I had been seeing anytime I wanted to go
against the current was only a mask, covering this harlot’s monstrous face.”
Then the table turned to the
end, where the two women, Cassie Logan and Lillian Jean Simms, sat, facing and
snarling at each other, Cassie with a woman’s secret detest and Lillian Jean
with a mad dog’s glare.
For a long moment the room was
silent and then Lillian Jean slurred, “What abou’ you, b***h? Whatchoo gonna
say ‘bout me?”
“What is there to say?” Cassie spoke with a polite air,
saying without words I won. “Since
the year of the fires I have secretly despised white people. And not because of
those racist arsonists, but because of the quiet one right in front of me. You,
the one who caused me so much embarrassment that day in Strawberry. You, the
one who made me carry your precious white-girl books around! I have been scared
to death, ever since, to truly speak my mind in front of white people because
of you! And now, this man, this beautifully kind and amazing man has brought me
into his home to stare into the dragon’s den. And what do I see? I see a poor
little girl who never grew up, but instead shrunk so the only way she was
comfortable in life was through a bottle. This man,” she looked at me with
grateful pleasure in her eyes. “this white
man, gave me more power than anyone, except maybe my father, than anyone has
ever in my life. Thank you, sir.”
Silence swept over the room,
half of it filled with tremendous pleasure and victory, the other melting in
loathing. However, the latter side had always been filled with loathing, and
not just outward hatred, but also inner. They were small shells of people, characters
really, while those on the former side were flesh and blood and dreams and
hopes. They had their doubts and their struggles, but, after looking into the
maw of the great beast and finding it to only be gumming at its victims, were
able to rise above those self-doubts and become their full selves for, perhaps,
the first time.
And it was all because of me,
I couldn’t help thinking as, after dinner, I sent them through the dimensional
hopper from which I had brought them. Back to, for Ramon Reynolds, Branwell
Zamborska, and Cassie Logan, lives fuller and richer than before. Back to, for
Leon Reynolds, Vivian Shawcourt, and Lillian Jean Simms, lives as low and dull
and poor as before, but with their true selves showing.
In the quiet of my home I
opened my notebook and, with a permanent marker, etched out the following:
Roll of Thunder, Hear my Cry by Mildred
D. Taylor
Silent to the Bone by E. L. Konigsburg
Ish by Peter H. Reynolds
Who to bring forth next? I thought
to myself as I looked up and down the list.