I apologize

being bullied and disliked

Sorry if I found out,
I was oblivious at first,
You were calling me names,
And talk behind my back every time.

Sorry if I'm not a person likeable,
I can't change that fast,
And I don't want to change for you,
Because I feel unfair.

Sorry if I displease you,
I cannot be what you want me to be,
I didn't wish to know the truth,
Because I don't want to be hated.

I cry every night,
Wishing that everyone should just accept who I am,
I want to be accepted.

This simple wish,
I know it might not come true,
So, God please help me.

Author's Note

I am so-so right now, both optimist and pessimist(: Writing helps always

Reviews

[Drifter]

This poem makes me mourn for all those who have been bullied or hurt by all the pathetic people who think they are above everyone else. It's hard to be optimistic when the world is as filthy as it is.
They say keep your friends close and your enemies closer, but I don't agree with that. I'd say keep your values close and God closer.
Deep poem you have here.

[Rhianne Ney]

thank you for the review... that's right I can't agree with keep your enemies closer also... (:

[Allycat]

Bullying is a very sensitive subject, the people that are being bullied end up blaming themselves for everything that has happened. There are some terrible people in this world. Bullying goes away as you get older, trust me...it gets better :)

[Rhianne Ney]

I will of course trust you you've experienced more than I did...
that's right I felt like it was all my fault but anyway I'm also feeling better (:

[Allycat]

Good, because it isn't your fault. They best thing you can do is ignore the bullies and pretend like it doesn't bother you, eventually they will get bored and leave you alone. I myself was bullied in middle school, but as people got older less and less people were being bullied. So just wait a little bit and this will only be a thing of the past :)

[Rhianne Ney]

Sure! thanks

[TheAdamBryant]

I at least i won't change for no one , i will be the same person i am always

[Rhianne Ney]

continue being you (:

[Jetta Zippora]

This is all too familiar to me. Tragic but true. A beautiful agony in words, my friend. I've always felt like the odd one out and the "quiet" person with nothing to say. I never get a chance to say what I really want in the real world, and I understand the pessimist take. I'm more of a optimist...I try to be. But this world is full of pathetic challenges and walls you can't scale. I'm resolved to stand and whisper my heart in the shadows. But a lovely piece with raw emotion. You're not alone. :)

[Rhianne Ney]

thank you (:

[Acropolix]

In the first stanza you state: 'And talk behind my back every time'. Since this line is connected to the previous line, naturally it'd be in past tense as well, meaning that it should read: 'And talked behind my back every time'. Though, it's free to interpretate the line as a continious action, yet so is the calling of names behind someone's back.

The poem shows you have a great empathy for the less fortunated and use vivid and clear words to express emotions, which makes readers capable of identifying themselves with the poem. I enjoyed your work very much so!

[Rhianne Ney]

Thank you (:

[BIIKAY]

AWWW :( DONT EVER FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO CHANGE FO ANYONE BC UR PERFECT THE WAY YOU ARE!!!

[Rhianne Ney]

thanks for your kind review (:

[Mia]

This is heart-breaking! Thank you for sharing such a raw part of yourself with us! This poem is deep and really makes you think how you affect others!
If I may say, accept yourself and others will follow your lead. If you can accept yourself; others can too easily but if you don't, well nothing good can come from that.

[Rhianne Ney]

I would take your advice... thanks a lot (:

[Mia]

Pleasure :)

[Rhianne Ney]

I am glad I posted this... The trauma from my second year high was great... and now my scar is nearing to be healed (:

[Mia]

Writing really does help us heal! Keep writing about your emotions whether good or bad!!! Let it ALL out!

[Rhianne Ney]

I will (:

[FrancescaX]

hey Rhianne. sweet poem. people always point out our weaknesses so that they can feel superior. they want us to change for them, but not necessarily for our good. although there may be some attitudes you exhibit that your true friends would point out nicely.

lovely poem.

[Rhianne Ney]

you're right, glad you can relate (:

[Amanda J. S.]

this is so sad :-(
everyone should be allowed to be who they are!

[Rhianne Ney]

sadly, not all will allow that... people who wants to control others also exist..

[Amanda J. S.]

Oh, I know... For a long time I haven't been accepted, either!

[Rhianne Ney]

I'm glad you can relate (:

[Amanda J. S.]

:-)

[Steven Cash]

This is very amazing. VERY amazing. Great subject too

[Rhianne Ney]

thanks for stopping by and reviewing it (:

[Steven Cash]

No problem

[Rhianne Ney]

(: