Pain sears through my body
as I feel the knife pierce my flesh. My heart is broken and bleeding, my mind
is trying desperately to free itself of the agony found inside. Bitter tears
flow down my pain stricken face as I come to a realization, a realization that
all I want and love is going to hate me...reject me...turn away from me because
of my own pride and evil desires.
The thoughts of my physical pain begin to cease, as do the other workings of my
mind. I close my eyes as the tears stop flowing, my heart cold, my soul forever
locked away in a body of torment; an unforgiving shell that feels nothing but
the darkness of its own heart.
I
replace the knife, well streaked with blood, my hand over my side. I turn to
walk away but I stumble, my eyes dimming, my heart racing. Alone I cry out, now
aware nobody is there to hear me and nobody cares due to my own stupidity. I
take a breath and drop to my knees, crying, broken and bleeding. Alone in the
Dark.