The Recovery

1)Eight

23+1=24

and over that period of time I feel like I needed more.

And if your lost u shouldn’t be

guess I got caught up in what was good to me...

So I watched it over but I had to stop the tape!!!

NO WAY I CAN COOPERATE!!!

and please don’t try to alleviate

because NO WAY CAN I NEGOCIATE!

This s**t is sick, please don’t try to doctorate,

oops it died, don’t try to resuscitate

and if you didn’t notice, this s**t I will not tolerate.

 

2)Cheer Up

Did I ever tell you that I hate it when you're right?

When I try to keep things in the dark you always thrust them in the light.

I know I don't like it, but sometimes I don't mind,

Even though your angry, I love it when you're kind.

being friendly to your best, I think you need some work,

and stay away from locker 778, that's where the weirdoes lurk ;)

 

3) Phase

Your tears may fall into your hand,

and your legs may tremble as you stand,

and your heart may quake when stress is near

and you may give in to your biggest fear,

but deny not, my love, the time of change.

and Sob? why not my love, it's just a phase

 

4) Sleep

I'm looking for the voice that'll sing me my lullaby.

Don't try to substitute, no improvision will justify.

don't make a sound I’m almost there,

but I still need someone to be my teddy bear,

But I cant sleep now, I guess I’ll stay chillaxin

 

5) True love

looking in your face is like looking into the sun.

I've never had a love so good what have I done?

Why do I deserve your kindness?

why do I deserve you care?

even when I was mindless...

I ALWAYS saw you there.

 

6) Gamble

hmmm... I'm feeling lucky I’ll roll the dice.

I take the chance and not look twice.

I feel as though its worth the dare.

I feel the time is right to care

I can look back and let go...

with only a personal success to show

 

7) Her

heartbreak was something I never wanted to endure.

but that had to change when it came to her.

she broke right through the walls I had

but she made a home and made me laugh.

she stole my love but was it theft?

she said I pushed her away the day she left.

I cant get her back not her not now.

I want to take her back but I don’t know how.

 

8)Listen to the Silence

blow up the sun and turn your night vision on,

not that it's night the sun is just gone.

So can you see theses thing right in front of you?

Can you hear the whispering? Do you know what they want from you?

Do you know? Do you know? Do you know at all???

Do you know that when you jump you are destined to fall

 

9)Painting

life is not a painting but I’ll fall back into the scenery.

I'm not the main focus, I can tell b/c your not seeing me.

So tell me what’s up? who’s down?

Are you gettin over? or foolin aroun'?

open up your lips and I DARE you to lie.....

with my hands on my hips and a knife through your spine.

 

10) Fight Harder

I may enter slumber with gloom in my heart

but I know I wont finish last cuz I'll zoom back to start...

but if you really know me then you know what I'm about.

you know I'll be up and ready to figure it out.....

And I know I’m not the one but I am the only

and I need no one but God him and I solely

　　

11) Ghetto Prayer

Now I lay me down to sleep

but not in here cuz s**t is cheap.

I need you to guard me through the night...

but if a n***a come knockin....

the ceiling will be his last sight

 

12) Card Game on the Field

I ate all 9 courses baby I’m fed up.

you can apologize if you want but baby I don't let up.

I can't deal with you any more you forgot how to play your cards.

You losin ya game, cant throw but 2 yards...

 

13Knee Bound

baby I don't beg I belong on my feet.

Only when It comes to God will I get down on my knees.

If you think that it's all good

I’m afraid I have a trick.

like to know, I'm sure you would

but gimme a tissue you make me sick.

 

14) I AM!

I am who I am, not who I wanna be.

but baby I got plans look out for who I'm gonna be!

I can feel the change... I'm growing I'm growing!

you may think It's strange but my way are where things are going...

and do not doubt for all my words are true....

and when you see my sprout just know I owe it all to you

 

15) Diva

I'm so sure! I think I found the solution!!!

to remain pure and not give into delusion.

If I see something I don't like damn right I’m gonna change it.,

cuz u know I am a diva and I ain't s**t to play with.

 

16)Ajed

No matter what I couldn’t resist....

I think you found that out right after we kissed.

You're the first person I fell in love with...

my words are true I tell no myth.

Just being friends, been there done that

but to point A you see we've made it right back.

thinking of you is something I can't help but do...

and despite ...it all.... A part of me regrets meeting you...

 

17) With All My Might

Some things are worth are fighting for...other things are not...

well sum1 call the fire truck cuz things are getting hot!!!

no way to extinguish except with my salty tears....

not that I’m crying, they’ve just collected over years.

but I'll let the past stay where it is

because NOW I don’t want to give up something I might miss...

not that I hold as a fright

the keyword my dear was might

 

18)Breaking Through

hmmm.... I still don’t understand...

this entire week has been stressful and I don’t know who is at hand....

the work of God I guess...

A periodic test.....

to see if I'll get through it....

But please don’t underestimate me, I know that I can do it

 

19) Emergency Bailout

Do you know how if feels when your world spins too fast?

The feeling of disaster and the strong threat to crash?

do you know what It's like to have your heart jump out,

for it to leave the treasure and cry and shout?

 

20)Shine

I'm comin up off the ground...who doesn’t think I can?

Oh like I really care...who's my biggest FAN?

nope no one? that’s okay more for me.....

But when you look up at the sun I'll be who you see.

Because i guarantee you one day imma shine.....

I’ll be lookin down on haters like 'b***h this world is mine'

 

21)Color

A world of color is much better than a world in black and white.

I know its fun to do wrong but it feels better to do right.....

why dwell in the darkness when you can live it up in the light?

I know things get hard but it's important no to look down.

After all where are you gonna go with your eyes on the ground?

Things... aren’t that bad if you really look around.

I know some things may appear so vile....

but shed some light on them with the charm of your smile　

　

22) Pieces

A part of me is angry a part of me wont care

A part of me is sad nope that part ain’t there.

A part me is happy, and ready to rejoice,

Part of me won't move, unwilling to make the choice.

Part of me is playing games but redi to lose.

Which part should i claim? I'm not redi to choose.

 

23) Forever

Where has my love run off to?

Baby come back i wasnt ever done with you.

Your place is by my side forever in eternity.

Tell me no different because I know you have the ability.

Please don't leave me please don't go.

I need you, you need me, that we both know

　

Official, Official? You want to be official? You want to be on top? okay then just initial. SIKE b***h back up. Step away from my thrown. It's because you act up that you were DENIED your own. You ain’t got what it takes to be the QUEEN. i got the power that you ain’t never seen. But you can be my joker and forever make m...e laugh, I mean u don’t have to i understand if you pass

Julya Mae Abdullah-Muhammad I ain't queen but a goddess type being And I ain't denied my own cuz everything’s my thrown as i sit atop this world I laugh at little girls yeah the ones just like you who ain’t got a clue what they gettin themselves into when they step up to a b***h who know how the game's played i got no more to say cuz I'M PHAEDRA MAE MOCHA AND DONT SAY I AIN'T TOLD YA BEYOTCH!!!

Serenity Marie Abdullah-Muhammad Well I see little girls like you never grow up. What's that s**t comin outcha mouth i think I’m gonna throw up. Goddess my a*s you ain’t nothing but a human. You riden my ship you ain’t nothin but a crewman. Call me Calypso when you ride my waves boo. And if you scream for help i hope no one saves you

Julya Mae Abdullah-Muhammad Calypso my a*s Poseidon’s in this b***h carry yo a*s home n go crawl in yo crib cuz alls you is, is baby cryin for attention cuz any love from home is impossible to mention just holdin out ya hand for anything that fall so damn greedy yo b***h a*s takes it all. SO OFFICIAL MONEY MAKERS

Serenity Marie Abdullah-Muhammad tsk tsk tsk your kind never learns. When the fire starts to spread I hope you get some burns, cuz yeah imma baby girl yeah i got that baby swirl I keep my hand on the fork cuz i keep my s'getti twirl. But don't get me wrong I'm an army b***h. I march with my soldier like come harm me b***h. As if u could hurt you little baby sister.... I don’t think you could cuz baby don’t you miss her?

Julya Mae Abdullah-Muhammad I'd diss her before I'd miss her. What the hell you think this is? You take and I give? Sorry boo no way I'd go back to the days where everything was twisted and no one ever listened. I’m too grown for this s**t that's why I sit here writin spits so you can fully understand that I no longer need a hand to help me up when I fall cuz whatever happens i got it all. SO OFFICIAL MONEY MAKERS

Serenity Marie Abdullah-Muhammad I was all ways listenin But i wasnt ginin in because i thought i was too strong for love so i thought i had to shove because we were too close. But you didn’t know that you went be what you supposed...I needed you so much to me my friend but a friend wasnt enough so you put a sisterhood to end

 

24)Moon Baby

Come on mi amor It's time to prowl.

Face the moon get redi to howl!!!

La luna es mi amor!!!

need I tell you more?

okay it's like this yo soy un bebe de la noche.

Dwell in the sun maybe but under the moon is where I stay

 

25) Roses

Plucking off the delicate petals of a beautiful red rose.

Asking the question not a single girl knows.

Plucking and plucking until only then stem is left in here hand.

What does this mean? She can't understand.

Standing in wonder the sky starts to rain,

Her finger is thorn bound she is aching with pain.

 

26) Race

Most things in life are better than some,

but you cant get these things until you've truly won.

And to win you must enter the game.

And trust me losing is never a shame.

But to win you must truly care,

You can cross the finish line, I know you can get there

 

27) Angel

this winged being of strength and truth.

this imperfect being of innocence and youth...

Can I have him can i hold him can i make him mine?

I want him not the old him, him for this time....

take a peek from a higher angle.....

take a peek at my baby angel

　　

29) Shaman

I'm tryna listen to what my heart says but all sit does is beat.

I'm trying to fix the hole but it's already complete....

I wonder who's healing it I wonder who is the Shaman....

I swear I'd never harm him....

 

30) On Top

My mind is full no room to put tricks in.

I'm the baddest bull and the baddest vixen!!!

Try me if you wanna Imma shut you down.

Throw yo a*s in a river and watch you drown.

Oh I'm sorry! Am I being mean?

Well if you know like my papiii I can be obscene....

I'm a good girl but don't get on my bad side...

and to them wood girls... your fake asses will never shine

 

31) Get Atcha

Who is diss b***h tryna say she real?

I think imma put her in a ditch like what’s the deal?

what you tryna say like I think you strappin?

Okay meet me in the parkin lot nd we can get scrappin.

And what bodies you droppin?

What tops you poppin?

And shan’t you say anther word cuz you swag is stoppin,

as if you ever had any,

but girl i got plenty

but not to go around

sorry if you’re found let down.

I know things have been said, and its too late to erase.

I know things have been done but let me plea my case.

I know things look bad there is more to what you see.

I can explain it all you just have to let me.

Can we meet up on Sunday, I don't know what time.

 

32) Gravity
Standing on top of a hill and there is only on way down.

Gravity is trying, trying to pull me to the ground.

But I rise like the sun does in the east.

And to my surprise the rising has not ceased

　　

　33) Get At Me

imma a 5ft 5 light skinned queen.

I always keep money be it silver or green.

I may not be the best but I know for sure I'm great.

I go for what I want, I have no time to hesitate.

And My words hold as much value as the grades I flaunt.

So come get it baby, ain’t that what you want?

 

34) War

>>ding ding<< ROUND 2!!!

Redi to step into the ring redi to fight for you.

I hope I win the dispute.

That way I can face my soldier and give a proud solute.

Because like I said I'm redi for war.

And you best believe it cuz this is what I stand for.

 

35) No Luck

There is know future for you and I.

I know this and yet still I try.

I push and I squeeze, and never give up....

But in the end there was never such luck

 

36) Rainy Days

From salty lakes and vast oceans the scorching sun will fry

Massive clouds and water vapor it seems the sky will cry

So what bitter taste is left in your mouth as you open in to catch the falling drops?

What will you do to prevent the flood if the rain never stops?

Remember the words that you muttered into the wind truth you said or was it?

I never expected you to remember so hey…. F**k It

 

37) Massive Attack

Hey baby I didn’t know you were an archer

I swore you were a soldier, my little baby marcher

Was it a bullet or an arrow that hit my heart???

Either way you got good aim

Could they be the same? The same cold blood attack.....

Like an amateur sculptor you gave my heart a crack..... Hit it front and center like there was a big red circle around it...

 

Beautiful it may be but is dirt the only thing you can dig up?

Because you don’t have a label on your shirt does that mean you cant put your head up? Yeah a BAD girl may like a little extra money

But a REAL girl will take a rainy day and make it sunny.

And who cares about the color of your skin?

look beyond the exterior to find who you are within.

If you doubt yourself that’s a doggon shame

 

the fire in my eye is more than just a blaze and the furry behind is more than a hateful gaze. you crossed me once and i believe i let it go, you crossed me again and now that road is closed