The Reverse

1)Confrontation

If I am a different person

Who was I before?

Just because I’m openly cursing

Does that make me more?

Or am I less?

Because I’m not the best?

Am I worse?

Because you don’t know who’s first?

And we know it’s not you

Who are you to judge me?

To try and make me brand new?

If I am a different person

Who am I now?

A bubble bursting?

Suddenly full of ‘wow’?

You don’t want this side of me

Now go get some class

You best get out my face

And you best do it fast.

 

2)Arguing with the truth

Are you sorry?

Hold any regret?

What’s the worry?

I’ll get through it

Will you now?

We’ll wait and see

This I can’t allow

Now let me be.

 

3)Prowl

As a predator

She must prey

What she is invented for

Is a merciless slay

　

　

　

4)Hidden

Yes I know I’m only 13

And I know good and well things are not what they seem

I spent most of my years watching from the shadows

I’ve witnessed all different types of pains, all different types of sorrows

I’m years away from being grown

But I’m closer than you think to having sorrows of my own

 

5)Daughter Earth

Planted by my father

Harvested by my mother

I’m usually a bother

But I am like no other

I’m a different kind of plant

The kind that will grow tall

But pick me you can’t

Because I’m not a plant at all

I feel pain

Just not all the time

I still take in rain

But I produce liquid sunshine

 

6)Alarm

The shy is falling

And the moons ablaze

You hear me calling

But ignore my gaze

 

7)Tease

Shoved into the cold

I was all alone

My self esteem gradually sank

My thoughts had gone blank

Ahead was a fire blazing

The flickering flames were so amazing

I couldn’t move, I kept on freezing

The blaring flames just kept on teasing

 

8)Be Still

I see no sun

I feel no heat

For the moon

Matches my heartbeat

 

9)Nights Out

I’m addicted to the moon

And all things done in the dark

I can find no room

The sun is not a part

 

10)Rain Curtain

It’s rain days like these that make me feel clean

I feel isolated, viewing life through a watery screen

Why can’t I go out and dance and rejoice?

Because I took my chance and I made my choice

 

11) Mask

I’m happy but not complete

My appetite for fulfillment is not petite

I may need to change this façade

Turn towards the sun and pray to God

 

12) AM I?

I'm not who I am, I'm not who you see

I'm not who want or who I decree

I am who I'm not, not part one or part two

Don't focus on who I am... Who the hell are you?

 

13) Virgin

The secret fantasies of a virgin

Who would know?

Her thoughts a sin

But her body as innocent as a doe

Private encounters

Inside her mind

Sex in the shower

Is what you will find

You'd never guess what goes on under the moon's glow

As she lets the sheets more than caress her skin

So why would a single soul need to know

These secret fantasies, of an innocent little virgin?

 

14) By Myself

If life is not meant to me lived alone

Then why am I by myself?

You return to this place called home

I call it hell

　

15) Eyes

I slip into conscienceness each day

Not excepting that I’m awake

Because the reflection in the mirror

Brings on such a terror

Because there is a depth in her eyes

So deep I did not recognize

That she was me

And I was she

Is it sad that I had changed?

That I was forbidden to stay the same

And as I looked into those eyes

I found a terrible surprise

She was bad, she was evil, she was mean

She was a devious little being

And the story she told with my eyes…

I couldn’t wait for her to die!

But why would I kill my best friend?

Why would I want our life to end?

Could I not forgive her for what she’s done?

Can’t I end my selfish love?

I can feel the tears she cries

For they are the same tears that fall from my eyes

I remember all of the pain we used to share

Because there is no ‘used to’ the pain is still there

We hold on the pain wanting to let go

But without the pain there is nothing else we know

This pain got hooked on morphine

This pain is mixed fire and gasoline

But I guess I’ll go into my shadow

Go some place my reflection can’t follow

Though I may not need a disguise

I can simply close my eyes

When I thought I had cried my final tear

When I thought my time to shine was near

I learned she was not so quick to give

She told me first, this life I must live

I thought that if I stand up to this girl

I can survive anything in this world

Even though this girl is bad

She has things I wish I had

She does things I’d never do in my dreams

She has taught me life is never what it seems

And I can’t mess with her over powering audacity

She is an overload of my minds capacity

I must confront this monster

And ask her why

Why must she reveal herself in my eyes?

Then I will say to her

You must become what we were meant to be

WE must except ourselves as part of me

 

16) Who?

I can work through the sadness, I can live through the rain

I can’t shake my bad habits, or see through the pain

If I won’t open my eyes then what can I see?

But who else can decide who I will be?

 

17) Practice

If practice makes perfect

Then I’ve done nothing at all

You an watch my many flaws surface

All big, none small

I’ve seen you get dressed up

Like you’ve seen me get messed up

But how could I smile and give the world my laughter?

Why would I walk meters and miles and not know what I’m after?

 

18) Grow

You must first plant the seeds

In order to retrieve the fruits

When you decide to harvest me

Make sure you rip out the roots

Because I never wanna grow back!

I want to stop running, to get off the track

And I can already feel the blood leaving my veins

There is no feeling I cave no complaint

No body’s home,

No pillows on the bed

If you ever come home

You’ll find me here dead

 

19) Intentions

Make me happy, make me dead

Put a bullet inside my head

Please oh please make me disappear

Cut my throat form ear to ear

Make me silent, keep my sound

Put my body in the ground

Make me Smile, make me cold

Stop my blood, are you bold?

Kill me, hate me, cause me harm

Crush me break me, set the alarm

　

20)Direction

I feel so lost in this circle of life

I’m looking for a corner, but it’s too dark, there is no light

 

21) Mom

I hate looking at you, I’m just shaking my head

Damn you’re so stupid with cigarette burns all over your bed

You look so malnourished like you haven’t eaten in days

Now look at this note, do you know what it say?

It says you love me and you’ll never leave my side

I wish I knew then that the not was nothing but lies

 

22) Ghost

Where is the girl in white? The transparent ghost?

Why is she running from what she wants the most?

She’s wandering and wondering for she is no longer whole

She’s just a moving body, for she has lost her soul

 

23) Real Girls

Now we don’t look alike but that doesn’t make up for unique

My hair is super frizzy and yours is shiny sleek

You’re surrounded by fakes and I’m surrounded by friends

Girl are you awake? Trust is that trend.