Smoke

I decided that I'd risk it all for you

But I don't know if you'll do that, too

I'm so scared that you'll only leave me

When my pathetic fears you see

They always get in the way

I'm hoping that you'll stay

I'm hoping that you'll understand

Because I'm so in love with you and

I don't think I can live without you

Because I want you, I need you

I don't know if you feel the same

If your heart skips a beat when I call your name

Because mine does whenever you speak

And when you kiss me, I'm breathless for a week

I want to fall asleep in your arms and wake

With you still there, for my sanity's sake

For I am frightened that you'll disappear like smoke

And that your love for me is only a joke

The more I write, the worse I feel

But it's the only way to make it real

For if I keep it all locked up deep inside

All it will do is break apart my mind

I can't bear to feel this confused

All I've ever been is used

Every time I see you, you take my breath away

But even if I can't breathe I want you to stay

I'm begging you not to leave me

But an empty horizon is all I see

I want to cry but the tears won't come

I can't cry for myself, but I can cry for some

Only others, my own pain I cannot feel

For I don't think that I should feel

Pity for myself when I don't deserve it

The spark of fear a fire has lit.