My Lover, My Monster

I'm looking at myself in the mirror

What I see in my eyes I know I fear

To see the darkness that I hide with lies

A monster that is waiting behind my eyes. 

Of this creature I have rarely spoken

Because of it there are wounds on my heart open

And that's why I'm bleeding inside

It's all because of the beast in my mind. 

I didn't want you to know, I don't want you to see

This terrible monster that hides in me

I'm frightened that you'll leave me alone

When the true terror within has been shown. 

Such anger it feels, it's so full of rage

I'm struggling to keep it inside its cage

No matter how hard I keep it from being free

I can't keep it from slipping by me. 

But I have something that it can't fight

I have someone to hold me in this dark night

Someone that says he loves me so much

He drives my monster back with just a touch. 

His arms wrapped around me tight 

His lips against my neck makes light

That bursts behind my eyes and drives it back

A weapon against my lover my monster lacks. 

The heat which grows from where our skins touch 

I love the feeling in my heart so much

A need, a hunger that burns inside me 

He knows it is there and still by my side he will be. 

My monster retreats from the love we make

The passion within me he stirs makes it shake

With fear, for his love makes me so very strong

And it knows that from him it cannot hide for long.