Truth

I gave everything to you and you threw it in my face

You left me alone, lost and confused in this dark place

You told me you loved me, you said you did, was it a lie? 

Why is it when you speak to me you won't look me in the eye? 

You insist on ignoring my desperate cries of such pain

You're turning around and leaving me in the dark again

Heedless of the fact I don't want to live without you

Maybe I was a fool to believe that you felt that way, too. 

I feel like everything you told me was such a lie, 

When all you do is stand around and watch me cry

Doing nothing at all to brush away my ceaseless tears 

Or chase away my innumerable, endless fears. 

Have you decided that I'm not worthy of you? 

Did you ever stop to think that I needed you

I need you to hold me close and keep away the dark

And keep these blades from leaving their mark. 

But the blood is flowing now and twenty-six in their number

The hideous monster inside me has woken from its slumber

And all I feel is pain and agony, sadness and despair

Don't you ever dare pretend like about me you still care. 

You left me, abandoned me, and I begged you to come back

I know that there are things that I will always lack

But I still wish that you would come running back to me

I'm still so very much in love with you, why can't you see? 

I don't ever want to leave those times, I don't want you to go

Those happy days I spent in your arms I just hope that you know

That I hold those moments forever in my heart

And I hope and I pray that someday we'll restart. 

I'm tired from chasing you all over, following your trail

Trying to catch up, trying to catch you by the tail

If all you were going to do was permanently break my heart

Why didn't you tell me the truth from the start?