The Heart or the Rose

I don't know what I should do

I don't know how to face you

When all I feel is betrayal and pain 

I'm losing all of my control again

My world is slipping through my fingers

And this empty feeling still lingers

No one can fill this hole in my heart

This is what I was frightened of from the start. 

You said you would always be there

But I think now you don't care

For you left me here, alone and lost

I don't feel like it's worth the cost

Nearly six months I spent by your side

Now you're gone, I'd rather I had died

Having lost you the way I did

Was there anything I could have said? 

I don't feel like drawing breath any longer

When this feeling of depression grows stronger

And I don't know if I want the Heart or the Rose 

I don't know if it was the right thing I chose

I want to turn Time's clock backwards

Back before my heart was nothing but shards

Back to when I was safe in your embrace

But you're leaving now, should I give chase? 

Everything's falling apart because of me

And I'm in such pain now, don't you see

I can't live without your love, without you

How could you tell me you love me, too

When you're about to tell her yes

I know that I made everything a mess

But please, please, I'm begging you, 

Say that you want to me with me, too.