Forever Wounded

My words are pouring onto the page

My monster is fighting free of its cage

I keep breaking down into tears

I can't keep back all of my fears

I feel so lost, I don't know what to do

I didn't know I could love both of you

And now all of me hurts, my head, my heart,

Where's the button I push to restart? 

I feel like I've fallen into my nightmares

I'm looking for help and nobody cares

I can't tell them what I've done wrong

I've been crying, crying for so long

And none of you care, none of you care

So why at me do you insist to stare?

I'm such a freak, I keep hearing voices

They want to influence my choices. 

How could you leave me here all alone

When the love I held for you so brightly shone

But I guess it made you feel better to flee

With not a thought to the pain it would cause me

Not a thought to my tears, my blood, my pain

I want to go back, I can't go back ever again

What's wrong with you, don't you see 

You have forever wounded me! 

I want to run away, leave it all behind

I'm feeling so alone, I think I'm losing my mind

I don't know what I should do this time

For ever move I make turns out to be a crime

And now the blood keeps pouring down my fingers

This feeling of despair always lingers

I can't hide it anymore, I can't tell you a lie

Is it wrong that I feel like I want to die?