Back To The Old World

Along with the New World Disorder.

 

For So Many Years Have Passed By

When I Finally Came To The Realizations

That I Have Been Lying To Myself

For Trying To Change For Better

For Being Something Which I'm Not

For To Be Something What's Best

I Looked Back And Saw Nothing Happened

Except For All Of Those Ironies And Despairs



~ Who Am I Kidding? ~



I've Let People Pushed Me Back Hard

At Last, I Turned And Took The Easy Way

Not Only That I Jumped, I Took A Dive

I've Let The Darkness Consumed Me

Into The World Of Violence And Vices

The Only World That I Truly Understand The Most

The Only One Which I'm Very Comfortable With



~ How Did I Missed Out? ~



Now, I Remember What I'm Really Good At

Something That I'd Feared The Most Of All

People Lied To Me And Called Me An Angel

I Couldn't See My Wingspans That Well

Because The Sun Was Blinding Me From Seeing

I Thought I Had The Wings Covered In Dark Feather

But, After I Was Out Of The Sunlight And Finally Saw

I've Got The Wings Of Bat With Real Bad Skin Complex



~ What Am I? ~



Quite Simple, I Was Blinded And Confused

The Only Things That Had Awaken Me From The Lies

Were The Hardcore Pains And The Taste Of The Bloods

Which I've Truly Forgotten All About Them

Not To Forget All Of The Raw Actions And Excitements

How I've Missed Those Unusual Sensualities



~ Where Should I Go? ~



I Think I Belong In The World Of Fear And Pain

But I Refuse To Live The Life In The Fears

I Don't Mind To Live With The Pain At All

Because I'm Almost Apathetic And I'm Used To It

I Deserve To Be At The Bottomless Pit Of Hell

Yet I'm Still Alive And Still Raging On With Wraith



~ When Will The Moments Come? ~



As Long As I'm Still Around For Any Reasons

I'm Going To Wait And See What's Next

As Long As I'm Still Roaming Around

I'm Going To Expect The Unexpected

As Long As I'm Still Standing And Staring

I'm Still Holding The Patience In Within The Pains

As Long As I'm Still Waiting For The Moments

I'm Willing To Die For The Love That I've Missed



~ Why Do I Even Bother? ~



It Is Very Quite Simple;

After All Of Those Time, I Still Believe In Honor

So, I'm Dancing With The Demons And Devils

And Will Take The Darkness With Me To Death

Just For The Others To Live In The Lights

No Matter Who And What I Love And Honor

Love Is Always Worth Everything

To Live And To Die For

 

Author's Note

I know it make no senses whatsoever. Comments, Criticisms, and Reviews are welcome, but no lecturing.

Reviews

[The Viking]

Actually makes perfect sense. These are all questions many people, those who give a damn and are trying not to just meander through their lives, ask themselves. It's cool to see it put on paper and each question earnestly thought out. "When Will The Moments Come?" could be a poem in itself, with the repeated word in every other line. This is a deep, honest confession and absolution. I really have no problems with this at all, except a few grammatical errors. It's original, and it's something a lot of us feel, but don't have the right words to put it into, so thanks for putting it on paper. I'll have to fave this one.

[QuietPoet]

This does make sense. I loved this. Your did a great job expressing your feelings and thoughts. It was nicely written. Great job.

[Blade & Blood (The ..]

Well, it's often nice to ponder all of these questions whether they have an answer or not. The fact of the matter is: At least you're asking. :) This was an excellent poem. In contemplating and wondering about various thoughts and feelings is a wonder in itself.

Ironically Yours, Blade and Blood

[K. Carver]

Perfect sense.
Yes, perfect sense.
Very well done.

[Pookie]

It does make sense. all the questions many people, those that really care are trying not to.

[Legion]

It does make perfect sense. Almost to the level of martyrdom. A decent write and message. It is worth it all in the long run. Kudos.

[deeps]

I think it makes alot of sense,
I found this deep and very powerful.
This is my fave from you.
I really like this, It makes one think.
Wonderful write here.

[Sean M. Addams]

very deep piece ... it makes sense to me ..it someone searching for for all the hiding elements of life if that makes sense but best way I could explain it myself... lots of emotion going on in the this but sometimes that make the deep pieces become alive.... overall fav lines...I Think I Belong In The World Of Fear And Pain

But I Refuse To Live The Life In The Fears

I Don't Mind To Live With The Pain At All

Because I'm Almost Apathetic And I'm Used To It

I Deserve To Be At The Bottomless Pit Of Hell.............................nice job on this.... keep up the good writes..

Yet I'm Still Alive And Still Raging On With Wraith

[Vertigo]

hmm this was interesting to read

[~Mary Ann~]

I do believe this is a new favorite piece of mine from you. The darkness consumes and creates doubt. Sometimes it is easier to give in and give out. But bound by the honor and the strength within, it refuses the darkness will never win. For no matter what and how hard it tries, it will never kill the hope inside. :)
Nicely done! :)