Let me explain

A Poem by Rene'e

A description of anxiety in one of it's many forms.

I watch them talking and walking,
It all seems the norm,
They make it look so natural,
My head tells me, "reform."
My body says other thing's,
It seems frozen in it's time.
My eye's and head are wondering but my feet stand firm to ground.
I have no way of explaining why it's such a leap of faith,
but you can see it in my actions in a way you can't relate.
I'm made to feel secluded even though i see I'm not,
But i take it on board anyway because i feel safer under my rock.
Sometimes it's dark and lonely, sometimes it's my safe place.
But it seems all i can relate to as i sit and watch,
Sit and live outside the human race.
I'm not quite sure what put me here, not sure I'll ever know, not sure I'll learn to cope with it or ever manage to let go.
I have alot to give the world, but my ideas are boxed up.
Because no-one wants to share the mind of the one who lives recluse.
Atleast that's what my thoughts tell me, I'm not sure how true they are.
However it's all i have to go by in my world of disregard.
Disregard of what else is around me because it makes no sense,
Atleast not to me, the one under the rock that lives with the thoughts inside her head.