the unspoken words

Conversations have always been the most vulnerable cure in this world.

Being a good listener and especially to be open to understand others and their thoughts, because everyone has his special side of seeing things, even everyone has his way to get things.

That’s why we need to become more comprehensive without judging so quickly.

In addition, every single person has someone special that he relies on and sees him as trustworthy.

I had someone who I loved the most, trusted the most, not even that but he was the only friend I have ever consider as a real friend.

I told him everything about my life, the smallest issues, so he became  a part of my life as dear friend.

By time, I discovered how deeply I was in love with him; as a result I revealed my feelings for him.

Besides, I gave him a promise to never hide anything from him; it was the reason that made me tell him all my thoughts, feelings and decisions.

Even though I never give my trust or soul to anyone, I gave them to this precious person.

However, I’m getting really tired from this story that he brought it with him.

I feel like I don’t have the strength any longer, I don’t have the faith in him now, and I don’t have the patience to speak again and again.

Now, the words are dead to me, the silence is my only friend, and my soul is lost.

You did that to me my dear, obviously you don’t mean it, but it doesn’t matter now, because what is broken can’t be fixed, especially by you.

From now on, I won’t say anything  about me, I won’t tell my thoughts or my feelings, not because I don’t want to, but because I’m quite hurt that I don’t know what I should say, and because you already know everything, unfortunally you are living in denial.

Literally, I’m dead inside, my heart gave up on life, my soul is sleeping, and my body is acting.

By consequence, a dead person can’t reveal what’s inside and his inner voice is struggling in silence.

Furthermore, I will live for my career, for my ambition and I will only keep one dream about you, which is the hope for you coming again and having the same destination together.