Viewing life through my eyes;

There is so much shifting in my mind. I'm changeing without a doubt, for the better. I love this feeling, I'm comming to realizations I was once oblivious to, and reality is finally setting in- positive reality. I've always loved learning new things, but lately, I just adore the stimulation and fresh feelings that come along with obtaining new, valid, useful information. It's almost a feeling of thrill when I'll finish a chapter in a book; I'm in a sense, renewed. I gain a sense of impowerment through new knowledge and information. I feel the more I know and understand, the better I'll be at life. It's true! Think about it.. the more you know, the better you understand how the world and people work, which result in better life performance! It's absolutly wonderful to imagine all the availible information out there today, and a shame the number of people who actually care.

 

 

I hate being involentarily taught. That's the main reason I dropped out of highschool as soon as I could; It was doing nothing for me. It was a pointless waste of time, and I'd never pay attention or care. Just something about being told what to study and learn, and assigned tasks, made everything less interesting to me, even if only subconsciously. I'd much rather go about learning new things and takeing on new studies on my own time, about subjects I'm actually interested in. I do far more school-type "assignments", reading, learning, and studying out of my own interest than I ever would in school. For some people, school's the way to go, and that's fine for them. Some people, however, are like me. I basically think of it like this- I eliminated a part of my life that was serveing no purpose. Generally when I'm told what to do, or when it comes with the illusion of being more work than fun, I automatically get turned off to the idea.That's just me.

 

 

I'm more than confident in myself and my potential, I know what I'm capable of, and I know I am able to make it as far as I want in life. The only problem is, I'm not sure if I'd be mentally stable enough to care, or have the motivation, drive, and desire to go about anything. I know what I want, and I know I could achieve every last goal, if only I could eliminate my crippleing mood swings, and stay on my up's. My negative emotions are the only thing in my way, the only thing standing between me and my dreams. The only task I need to accomplish before makeing an attempts at life is finding a surefire way to stay happy and in a good mood, that euphoric, endorphic mood I'm in when I'm on an emotional up.

 

 

I used to be unlogical, and strongly belive in a "something more" side to life we're unaware of, but now, I lean more twards valid information, proof, truth, and facts. Only things certin and real. Don't get me wrong, I still belive in some sort of higher power, but I have absolutly no grasp of what it could be, no way to fatham, no image to go along with the belief of something more out there. All I know is, life and human beings are so complex, so perfectly planned, (though also quite flawed), and everything fits perfectly together like one big puzzle. Take triggered responses for example, or the complex organs in our body that work together. Just think of everything, and how everything always has a smaller set of inner workings. This all couldn't have just apeared out of nothing, yet I have no way to know anything further than that. I still pray often to what I call a "God", because anything with enough power to create everything, obviously has enough power to hear my thoughts and words, and see my every action. That's what makes sense to me. It may not be the God of the Christians, it may be, I'll never know until death..but I do belive there is something after.

 

 

Back on the subject of logic, although I belive in it, I also strongly belive in foreign life forms (aliens), spirits (whether once human or an entirely different being), and psychic ability. After all, it makes logical sense that our limited human mind is incapable of ever being certin what all is out there, and if our lifeform is this complex, who are we to say there isn't much more out there? The type of things I no longer belive in, due to my awakening to logic, include fad methods and rules to life, relationships, diets, the list goes on. I belive in the proven, psychological truth. Science. What works. Why waste your time on some random persons theory, when on that same exact subject, there is a method that's been proven effective? That doesen't make sense at all.

 

 

One of the most hopeless feelings in the world, at least for me, is knowing what could be, but won't be. For example, I belive in the possibility of world peace, I belive in the possibility of everyone beggining to concern themselves with the things that actually matter, and improveing the world as a whole rather than being selfish. I belive in alot of things, but I know it will never happen, because people don't care. Some people just don't grasp the concept, no matter how obvious it apears. It almost angers me to know that every person is capable of learning new information, trying new things, and working to improve themselves and their lives, yet the majority choose the common lifestyle, the easy way out. Alot of people aren't even properly exposed to all what's out there, in their mind the simple way their living is good enough, and their content, not by fault; They've just never realized how much more is out there, or what they're missing. Just because you explain it to someone, doesen't mean it will properly set in, or that they'll get it. Alot of people are stubborn, or just won't care. It isn't their fault, it's just the way they are. It's just sad to know alot more could be done to show all the deprived people of this other side, and motivate them to care.

 

 

People have motives; Nobody does anything unless they'll benifet from it. You may be thinking "that's not true! Alot of people often do things just for the benifet of others, or to be generous", but if you take a closer look, you'll realize that's still a benifet for them; A motive. The warm feeling of giving or helping, the pride, the satisfaction, the sense of well being. So when it comes to motivating people to care more about trying new things, what all is out there, and the bigger, other side of life that many day-to-day dwellers are missing, you've gotta give a reason why they should; Show benifets. There are far too many benifets to list, but many of these get covered up with the front that often apears as work or unnecesary labor. If you look at learning and improveing as fun and not work, enjoyable and not boreing, it becomes more desireable. It's also alot in your attitude twards the whole idea of takeing out your own time to read, study, and learn; All the things you're forced to do in school. See how that negative association occurs? Simple fix; Portray learning in a positive light, show it for what it really is, and see past the negative association with forced work and studying you could care less about.

If everyone took more time to learn, to read, to study subjects they're interested in, we'd improve and advance much quicker, and to a higher extreme. If everyone took in more valid information and knowledge, and excersized their minds more, we'd be on our way to amazing days. The sad reality is, though, most people are overly concerned with the unimportant aspects of life, and waste all their time.

 

 

Another huge problem in people, and a simple fix- Wasted time, and boredom. Instead of keeping busy, and finding things they're interested in or enjoy doing, many people resort to the easy way out- common activities like telivision, MySpace, movie theatres, malls, pointless hanging out, etc.. I'm not saying these activities are bad, not by any means, because they're not...unless overdone. If common activities are all you do, all your life consist of, what more are you than a loser? Nobody living this sort of life can really feel genuinely happy and complete.

 

(finish later)

 

Reviews

[WriterMe]

This was very nice. A very fresh and new perspective to things. I liked the thoughts you put into this. Over-all a very thoughtful write. Cant wait to read the complete piece. =]