Just my thoughts

I cannot stand authority. Now, before this gets misinterpreted as regular teen angst, let me explain. I completely understand that authority is a life necesity, and vital for society to work. I agree with a certin type of authority, that of which the person/people in command are on a mental level above those which they dominate, but when the dictator is only a figure of authority because of their age and ignoarant beleif that they are of a higher intelligence, that I strongly disagree with. Actually, it sickens me. I am aware I pretty much just contradicted myself, but I'm only human, and I too make mistakes. Anyways, why does this type of authority particularly get under my skin so unbearably much? The answer is quite obvious. I'll state it- authority figures have the ability to dictate what I do and do not do. In other words, they are able to tell me no. And it would be one thing if they had valid reason to back their "no", but when I know good and well what is best for me, and they are more than utterly wrong, that is just unacceptable. And I'm sure most people with sense would agree with me on that.

 

I am aware that I come across as immature or as lacking common sense quite often, but when I say I know what I'm talking about, you better damn well belive I know what I'm talking about. I don't pull nonsense out of my a*s and garentee it correct. I am wrong sometimes, just like any other person, but when I say I am certin, I am certin. I will assure you that there is absolutly no need to doubt my mind, because I am on the mentality level equivilant of I'd say, the average 30-something. That's pretty damn good for a 16 year old. My intentions are not to sound cocky, but to inform the reality. That's just the truth, and I want people to know that before they doubt me. I just have alot of issues that get in the way, which is why I often come off as less than I am. I do not by any means intend to use my issues as an excuse or crutch, but I do struggle with finding sollutions to them. I am short-tempered, not the greatest at portraying the information or ideas in my mind, (not by spoken-word, that is, where as my writing on the other hand gets the job done with flying colers), I can be quite delusional, the list of my minor, call them "disabilities" if you will, is endless. I have heard that, (again, not to sound prideful), "geniuses" often come with many mental issues, which often create difficulties in getting the most out of the intelligence the genius posesses. I'm still working on figureing out what to do about these problems, because another one I have is impatience, and I'm easily confused and overwhelmed, which makes it extremely difficult to find simple sollutions without loseing control in the process. Loss of control, there's another.

 

The one and only answer to life is and always will be, simply, truth. Truth is the light. Truth is the, well, truth! Liars seriously need to get their act together, because I am sick of the lies. The simple daily lies that are just a nusense, the lies about life, etc. They do no good. I mean, harmless little lies that won't hurt anyone just so you can get what you want, as long as they aren't harmful, that's okay. I am aware that lies are also a life necesity, in moderation, and without them, our world wouldn't be where it is today. I'm talking about the consistant lies with no regaurd to how they are effecting people. Those have got to stop. I know they won't, but the least I can do is express my hatred for them. I just had to put that out there. What was my purpose for saying that? I had no purpose. Life goes on. Or, you could take from it what you want. Either way.

 

I am done with people telling me I'm going nowhere, especially in reference to how I spend my days sleeping and my nights on the computer makeing "plans that obviously aren't working", (which isn't even all the time). Number one, don't talk if you don't know what the hell you're talking about, (refereing to my OCD that nobody understands). Number two, I'm going bigger places than anyone who puts me down has ever gone or could ever fathom going. That's a fact. It's a work in progress. I'm limited as to how much I can do right now, with no transportation or money of my own. What do they expect? And you've gotta look at the source when detirmining if you should allow someones harsh words to get to you. Who did it come from tonight? My grandma that's never done a damn bit of good for anyone, and sits in her chair all day doing dittily-squat, and is content with the life she's chosen? And that's the finger that points at me? Ha. She isn't worth two cents or two seconds of my time. Her words are pointless to me. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not looking for pity. I don't need that. I know what I'm capable of, I know how I'm going to put those capabilities to use, and that's all that matters. They'll all see in due time. When I'm on top, they'll know it. I'll make it a point to shove it in the faces of everyone who doubted me. I know alot of people find the whole "I told you so" concept to be wrong, but I disagree with that. Let's agree to disagree. And while I'm at the top, I won't only be flaunting it for my doubters, I'll be doing everything I can to use my publicity and fame to get through to people, and bettering society in all the ways that I can. I wanna make big improvements, and you better belive that I'm all for the people. There is no doubt in my mind that my name will be just as common as any movie star's, and I plan on useing that title for good. Not only to be reconised and idolized for that, but because I want to, and because I know it's the right thing to do. And I'm not picking myself out of a crowd to say I'm any better or more worthy of fame than anyone else. Anyone who has the commitment and confidence can make it to anywhere they wish to make it to.

 

This may start to sound like a rant by this point, or maybe it had that vibe from the start, but never the less, I'm gonna branch out on another thing that peeves me. I'm sure plenty will agree with me on this one- If you aren't knowledgable about a subject, don't talk about it as if you are. Simple. You just look stupid. I especially hate when someone in authority will go on about something, stateing several invalid claims that they belive to be facts, and you have to agree, even if you don't, just because that person happens to be older, or in authority. Well if I had it my way, I'd give them all a nice big "f**k you", but hey, that might get me into more trouble.. But just plain and simple, don't talk if you don't know what you're talking about. It's one of the worst things you can do in my opinion.

 

I'm not sure what I've accomplished through this piece of writing, if anything at all. Maybe I'll inspire some people in some weird way, or the least bit of good could be bringing peace of mind to anyone who agrees and needed reassurence that they aren't alone in their beleifs, whatever. I just had to get this all off my chest, and writing is the best way I can do that. So here you have it, a little bit of my mind.