What I lost

I don't know how
How you cannot see it.
See the one thing
The only thing tearing me apart.

I don't care that we aren't together
I don't care that you are with her.
I care that you are changing
And I care that I am hurting.

You were OK before going back
Back to her and her hateful ways
She's hurt you twice
And twice you've forgiven

I don't understand why
But I also don't care why
All these emotions
Conflicting upon another

Every time you speak of her
That girl you went back to
I feel more crushed
More defeated

I just don't know
If I can stand it
If I can take it
If I can ignore it
Much longer

You say the decision
Was made though
You still sent me that picture
That picture that showed me
Truly showed me what I had lost
Before I ever had.