Once again

Really just writing away some thoughts. . .

Once again i find myself torn and trapped and scorned

My heart is in two different places yet alarmed. . .

By the thought that i may never see you again,

Or kiss you again or even know you as a friend

Yet you only want me sometimes

I jump to you at the drop of a dime

People ask why everything i write is so sad

But writing out my sadness keeps me from going mad

Blocking out your existence keeps me from falling into sanity

Once insane, always insane and you're not understanding me

Or I'm not understanding you and what you say you feel

Love lost its flavor so i don't expect feelings to be real

I don't expect human lips to speak or our eyes to see

I am a storm waiting to become more of me

I am down and out

once again I shout

I need you lyke you once needed me

I need to know that we aren't meant to be

I need to be self-assured and not lured into lust

I need to know that i'm trying even when it's not enough

Once again true love is not permanent,just glossed

its a shame that love plus lust equals lost

yet i can't live without

can't scream or shout it

So we will do this lyke a never -ending trend

I play the fool once again.

 

By: B. G. R.

Finished: 07/07/2008 8:29pm

Reviews

[LadyLove]

To feel like a storm that rages and afraid the other will see that..yet push that one away when you feel it scares them...this is how many hurt themselves..expecting rejection and fearing that the love can't possibly be real. To say.."I need to know that we aren't meant to be" shows that fear somewhat..that you don't feel it will be permanent is how you protect yourself. But what do you fear of love?; And yet you want it as well. This piece shows the contradiction in your heart...the need and the disbelief that you could keep it. For how real is it in your heart? How much do you doubt it's trueness? It is thought provoking...good!

[universalove]

in my life time as being a man there are ways and actions of treating woman any way we want in order to keep and control them we think. but tis doesn`t work out because it causes pain . your poem is the out come of the above words. don`t look for love and respect , it will find you and put your spirit back in heaven were it belongs. thank you for the thoughts

[Muddy B.]

OMG!!!BABY THIS IS BEAUTIFUL.I LOVEEEEEEEE IT AND FOR SOME STRANGE REASON IVE BEEN THERE BEFORE.STOP TELLING MY LIFE

[Rachel Cooper]

Wow. I can really relate to how you feel (or felt).

Nice work.