What she denies

I wrote this with a heavy heart. My heart became light by the end of the rhyme. I am what she denies. . .

 

 

I can’t b w/out her, yet afraid2b w/her.

I try so hard2remember that I usually 4get her.

I embrace & chase the thought of what I lack.

At the end of the day, I can never have her back.

Her image calls out to me lyke a melodious song.

She makes me go rite but in the end it’s all wrong.

I can’t escape all the love she brings to me.

Her heart traps me and her voice sings2me.

It’s almost lyke a faceless epiphany.

The lonely musician writes a crying symphony.

Alone as a kyd left2die.

I have no tears left2cry.

I cannot live in her shadow another day.

I’m praying her aura fades away.

I feel trauma and her aroma is thick.

My memory of her grows slow and sick.

Wanted2dissect every moment.

I hold my heart but I don’t own it.

A cure4luv exists but I don’t want it.

I’m wide awake and still yawning.

I swear disappointment is lyke a pill.

I pop them lyke vitamin rather than when I’m ill.

My mind bears so much anger that I almost snap.

One chance left and that’s a wrap.

No longer floating behind rainless clouds.

Riding my car w/my speakers loud.

I am onli a child who is 2meek2b mild.

I will quench my thirst at the foot of the Nile.

Then I won’t be condemned to her.

I won’t bend to her.

No longer shall I cry and suffer.

Her abuse has made me tougher.

Lyke a little sister, I protected her lyke a brother.

I onli wanted2love her and never know another.

Who is she who has issued so much hurt?

She is anguish; mother earth.

Reviews

[Jake Martin]

I want to echo what Austin said before me.

A great piece, very strong, and very emotional. The resolution is great. I am left wanting more, but I don't feel like it lacked closure.
I also think that the spelling was used on purpose to stylize the poem a bit. I think it makes the poem more authentic. Loved it!

[LlamaLord]

Beautiful. Some spelling was wrong, but with the way you write, I dont see how it matters. This flows wonderfully with ease, with the exception of pain. Very very nice. Loved the read!
Good luck in my competition.

Austin