Back and Forth

Dealing with anxiety and depression

Back and Forth

I go

Teetering

On the edge

And back again

Leaning

Ever so close

To the border

Of wanting

To take that step

And never come back

Or that step

Back down

Off the ledge

Back and forth

Trying to make it

Or just give in

Give up?

Whichever you prefer

Back and forth

From admitting defeat

Or asking For help

Back and forth

Deciding

If help

Is even worth it

For help has been

Asked before

And help

Has been granted

Before

But no matter

How much help

Is given

Back into the hole

I’ve fallen

So why burden

People anymore?

Back and forth

The mind wonders

If the help

Was ever genuine

If the help

Would even

Come again

After all the help

Has already given

Back and forth

From slipping

Or holding

Steadfast

With feet

Firmly on the ground

Back and forth

Is hard

When the ground

Is covered

In slippery

Invisible

Ice

Back and forth

Between staying

And going

Between trying

And giving in

Giving up?

Again,

Whichever you prefer

Back and forth

With these feelings

These emotions

That pour

Out of my soul

Begging for a place to go

A place to rest

A place to be

At peace

Back and forth

Trying to

Be happy

To be okay

Back and forth

With nothing working

But what is there to say?

It’s just Another day.

Author's Note

Any thoughts and critiques welcome

Reviews

[Strong Noodle]

wow. I love this. The shifting from two to three words on a line and back again provides a wonderful sense of the back-and-forth message in the poem.
I'm really digging this poem.

[Kim S.]

Back and forth
Is hard
When the ground
Is covered
In slippery
Invisible
Ice

Love this part, is an amazing write