Perfect Enemy

Make up a melody for yourself as you read :)

Clenching my teeth and holding my tongue.

Aren’t methods that help make this any easier.

So much to do. So much more to say.

We don’t have the time to keep these things at bay.

I’m getting chills from the thrills.

That this dance of romance

Is supplying me with

While you keep denying me

Everything I need to keep going.

So how do I keep going on?

 

Blocking my ears, closing my eyes.

No longer falling for your pitiful lies

Time after time I’ll play my cards right

In the hopes that I can escape for the night.

You’re boxing me in, while closing me out.

I can’t lose my mind to you, you’ve taken everything else.

I’m such a mess and it’s all your fault.

I’m crazy, sight’s hazy, light faded, so jaded

Placing the blame on you won’t make me petty.

It makes me sane, it keeps me whole

Despite everything flowing out of the hole in my chest.

 

Logic is something that I’m fighting for.

Emotion is my crux and my tragic flaw.

You’re my fatal mistake, and you’re stressing me out.

I’m holding it in while forcing you out.

 

I’ve made my choice to block out your voice.

You don’t know your own power, the trouble you cause.

By lacking a heart, you make your own laws.

I wish you could hear the words I suppress.

It may take some time but their meaning won’t be less.

Darling so clever, and so dignified.

No wonder I had once confided in you.

But look where it’s left me, I’ve fallen so far.

 

I want you to know, that you failed me.

I gave you everything that I had.

But you threw it all back in my face,

Leaving me a shattered and heartbroken mess.

I will not give you the satisfaction of seeing me down on my knees

Begging you please.

 

Don’t go-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

 

I’m biting my lip and covering my scars

I won’t fall your usual tricks.

No you’ll never get sympathy from me again

You’re down on your luck? Oh darling that’s sad.

I opened up to you, and what do you do?

You trample me, maim me, and leave me confused.

All of these thoughts are running through my head.

I can’t find a way to make you understand.

It’s useless and I can’t prove how you’ve driven me mad.

 

You’re perfectly perfect,

A man among men.

The world’s in the palm of your hand.

Enemies and allies all wrapped around your finger.

No matter where I go, you’ve been there twice.

A brief respite would be so damn nice.

But I can’t hold onto that hope anymore.

Darling you’re falling but no one will dare to catch you.

You’ll turn on your savior in only a moment’s distress.

You sold off your soul, but you’ve made no mistakes.

Being King of the worlds does have some perks I suppose

But I’ll do my best to make sure in the shadows behind you, doubt lurks.

 

Clutching my cure and holding my breath

I hide in plain sight.

I pray to the gods, that they spare me.

Letting me live another day.

They’re under your thumb, so I’m not surprised.

They torture me but let me live with my fear.

I’m struggling in vain, my patience wanes.

I barely know what to do with myself anymore.

All I can do is keep my head held high

Walk through the fire that surrounds

Keep breathing deep.

Keep resisting my perfect enemy.