In My World of PTSDA Poem by Rebecca J MartinWhen u hear the word PTSD, what comes to mind? Army, Marines, etc...? Anyone can have it... this is only a part of what I battle with my own PTSD...Driving in my car Not feelin’ so right ‘I know it’s not far’, I think as I fight
Battle within myself This horrible war Where the world stands still And my thoughts explore
“What am I doing right now” I quickly scold myself This blurring fear I have “Put those feelings’ on the shelf”
As I came to a stop At the traffic light My eyes wander around And OH what a sight
In the rearview mirror I watch a huge cloud of smoke Then I realize he’s vaping I hope he doesn’t choke
My eyes wander to the left I watch her snap her gum Popping bubble after bubble Makes me kind of want some
The person on my right Busy chatting on their phone Really loud on a speaker In an impatient tone
Finally, I look Directly ahead They sit there in silence As the light is stuck on red
Every day people In an everyday life Just waiting to move ahead Without all the strife
My car begins to go As the light now is green Thoughts slowly flow through my head Like in an eerie movie scene
It’s almost like on Facebook These visions in my head I can click, Swype and drag When not hanging on by a thread Quickly my thoughts bail Without saying their goodbyes My body begins to tremble As do my eyes
My breath quickly hastens Brightness all around My heart races even faster As the world turns upside down
Overwhelmed by the sky Panic becomes my foe My eyes begin to sting I catch the tears before they flow
I reach out for thoughts and visions Hope they’ll be abound For my mind is better when I’m thinking Rather than me screaming without sound
Almost just like magic Everything turns upright I see the world in a safer way And in a much better light
I make it to my destination I’m most definitely in one piece But there’s still a tiny part in me That doesn’t want to cease
I now have a passenger One of whom I really trust Every negative and uneasy feeling Has turned right into dust
In the complex mind of a person A person such as me You can surely expect That it’s all due to PTSD © RebeccaJeanine71 © 2018 Rebecca J MartinAuthor's Note
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