Feelings are funny things

A loss is a difficult thing

When someone you love becomes a memory, you hold onto that memory,

 until it burns though your hands and deep into your soul. Maybe at first you feel guilty, angry even, but once it sinks in that they really are gone, you realise exactly what you had, or rather what you've lost, and that deep longing kicks in. You would trade anything you have for just one more moment with the one person you can never again have another moment with. In time you learn to live again, but the pain never goes away, it just fades ever so slightly. now and then, you feel that cold rush over you again. it comes at the most random of moments, maybe for no reason at all. Suddenly it cuts through you, that deja vu of sudden realisation, that you'll never see them again, and that realisation hits you like a ton of bricks. it cuts you just as deep as it did the very first time, but there's nothing you can do. you just have to grit your teeth and pretend you're dealing with it, but inside you are completely paralysed. Paralysed by the loss, and paralised by the overwhelming devastation. 

Reviews

[quixotic_rose]

You describe it perfectly, ive had that feeling too many times to count and it really is difficult to deal with but i just hide it away and pretend everything is ok and get on with life. Life is strange that way, along with feelings of course. very nice description and emotional appeal. excellent

[devon]

This is so true, and raw.

I am literally just sobbing buckets right now, and I can't stop.

Sad and true, but very beautiful.

[That_Girl]

Wow, this hits very close to home. Fantastic job describing the feelings associated with the pain and grief of losing someone you love dearly.

[Reaching for the clouds]

This is so sad and yet so true i have found....unfortunately. Well done. You have nicely described this horrible yet unavoidable pain.