Petals in Ashes

The sky burns brightly, as I watch the world I once had burn down.

Steps wither away with each step I take, no light, no sound.

My heart shattered like a broken mirror, a hole shot through my chest.

Hatred pours through my veins, anger, sadness.

So depressed I want to scream my lungs into non-existence.

A single father, to a beautiful daughter.

But I feel incomplete because she destroyed it all.

Her choice to cheat and abandon my daughter to have fun.

Choice to lay down and make a commitment, guilt tripping me every chance she gets.

Blocked me on Facebook, comes back a few months later telling me that she loves me and I don't feel the same anymore.

Believing the gossip other girls say; supposedly have a fiancé and getting married.

Yet she was the only girl I wanted, the one I wanted to die by.

Loved to much, only to be lied and cheated.

Played like a deck of cards.

But one day the Joker gets his way to the throne.

Obviously she don't get it, I never cheated, lied, stolen anything from her.

Wanted to have a perfect family, a better future then my destructive past.

Abuse, alcohol, drugs, homelessness, sorrow, depression and attempts of suicide.

Looking for my salvation, trying to grow from my ashes.

A rose that's been stomped and trampled.

Burned and thrown into gasoline, with petals sitting in ashes.

There's time I want to run away from my reality and find happiness elsewhere.

Birthdays forgotten and passed, Christmas spent alone, no presents nor love.

Disowned by my own mother; the burning desire to find my father.

No clues, or traces except the stories aunts would tell me, the words from my grandmother.

Wanting to search every corner of the map, to find the man that I've never known.

Ask him why he wasn't around.

Reviews

[Urja Gokani]

beautiful !! amazingly written keep it up :)