Nicki Minaj Has a Fat A*s

I listen to people express

how a big booty equals no self respect

and how proper it should be to hide under a mask of modesty

In order to fit a dress of double standards,

dictated by society.

and as the dress falls over my shoulders,

You cut apart my body like the shards of a cracked mirror,

You hack at my lips, hair, and my thighs 

and ask me why I frown and I sigh

as I wear this dress through school hallways

as I flip the European weave out of my sweaty face 

The dress collar feels tight around my neck

my head heavy with shame because I had sex

So I stay quiet until I'm sick or pregnant

and cry like a baby that is in my stomach. 

The dress feels tight against my skin

as you scream THOT or w***e through my windowpane

like sex can't be as natural as rain

nurturing flowers on their way to sprout.

Instead you'd rather a drought

to appease an invisible man in the sky

in order for me to be devout as Ophelia's dead eyes. 

You carve into my skin with your words a scarlet letter

and how I can behave as a good girl better.

I tear off this dress when I assert I am a woman with needs

and will do with my body what I please

Instead of beating into me a belt of Chasity

why not tell me to take ownership of my body-

to claim it and explore with it as if setting for sail 

raise my flag and hold onto every detail. 

I will shake my a*s if I want

because it's mine to conserve or flaunt

Isn't this a part of being free? 

Getting to decide if sex will mean something or nothing

does not make me a w***e or THOT or a s**t, 

it makes me a human being.

Author's Note

Sooo, I think sexuality is something that is brushed under the rug in the African American culture. I feel like often there's someone telling me to be chaste to be respectable to people outside my culture or to a black man, but that's not wise or an act of liberation. Black woman should be able to have sex without being called a whore. A whore in older times used to be someone who was dishonest. I feel like black girls as well as any girl really should be taught safe sex and to be encouraged to talk about it with their parents because as everyone should know screaming abstinence does not help rates of STDs or teen pregnancy.

I do recognize that I do not actually explore the title that much. I meant for this to do that.

THOT means That Hoe Over There. Ophelia is a reference to Shakespeare if anyone doesn't know.

Reviews

[Lyn Anderson]

I love this piece, for so many reasons. It addresses so many things -- as a curvy woman who will never have a small a*s, I hate hiding behind something that makes me look frumpy so I can be "respectable" -- we can't win. I read an article that said cleavage is out of style. So those of us who have it better cover it up. I have news for you, those high necked dresses make my tatas look bigger, not smaller! We all need to learn to respect each other and not cut each other down. Very thoughtful write.

[Shy Joe]

Budunck-a-dunk! I don't know if that is the proper way to spell it or not. I just wanted to type it out for the first time in my life. Anyhow, as far as your poem goes, I enjoyed your passion for freedom of expression. Thanks for sharing.

[Sir Drift & Mr. Pulse]

I really like this response. This is when true poetry births within us. The responses the rhythmical tosses. I applaud. Thanks for this